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Finished watching Glee few days back. The Finale was AWESOME! Love their song so much.

O well people, Hope you love the song. Gotta get back to the books. Last paper on wednesday. and I'll be having my sem break! tc!

Tried

TRIED!

Tired of it!

SICK OF FEELING THIS WAY.

Procrastinating

Work after work..

I wish I have more than 24 hours to finish my work and enjoy as well. I've been procrastinating since the beginning of the sem. I know that once again I wont be doing well in this semester! O well, what can I say. NTH! Cause I deserves it. zz. I just need the determination! and I can do it already. But is MISSING! O well, typical me. =(

I need data plan badly! Been cutting alot of sms-es that is why I'm so bored at home! I need data plan to watsapp! I need it to online everywhere I go! But o well, I told myself I will depend on myself to get the plan and a new phone! in a year time I'm gonna work and earn my own marnee! Cant wait! =) I will definetly feel more satisfy getting something I really want on my own rather than depending on my parents. I no longer wanna burden them with my monthly expenses. Phone bills, additional expenses will be all on my own!! Stress is wat I feel. Gotta eat, spend and save within the budget I have! How to earn money people? Any recommendation?

Finally, I'm gonna throw this away. =)

Is over right? why keep then? teehee

Get it right

Part of growing up

I guess is part of growing up in life. The pain the difficulties the joy the sorrows... When we fall down we gotta learn how to stand up and walk again. Never be afraid of falling because the pain make me realized and helped me to grow up in life.

For the past few weeks I found out that all I need was someone who can sit down, someone who can really listen to me and keep it within themselves, someone who can eat and talk at the same time. I realize how much I have been avoiding knowing that deep inside my heart I already got the answer. I have been leaving in a denial mode for the past few months! I have already let go! Is just the subconscious side of my mind telling me that I am still not over yet! I really cannot recall the number of times I persuaded myself that life still goes on no matter what. YET I fail to do so. For the past few months I've lost myself. I lost all my sense of belonging, the certainty towards this pain. My faith, trust and hope is gone! It was badly disturbed be it emotionally or physically and what's left within me was just wound. I guess is really part of life. When you fall down you gotta get back up and walk again in order to go through the right path way. There are much more to go through and waiting for me to fight through. I sat at home going through pictures after pictures which could actually made me upset and drain me down into my memory lane, but I realize that all I need was just time to talk to God and surrendering it all to Him and He will lead the way and show me the right path way.

Now, I'm done with it! Deep inside me I'm done wit it! Is over! I'm over it! I click open the folder and I brave enough to view one by one and look through it. Is all gone! and I'm happy about it! Wat is left is just memories. Which will remain forever..

Snowflakes is part of my addiction. I would say is the past of me.

but for now.. I'm NO LONGER addicted to it anymore! I found the reason to it and realize that it was me all along that being so naive. I'm awake now and will continue on my journey!

Thanks to the 40 days of fasting! I gave my time to God and pounder upon it. I guess in many ways I used to leave in denial mode. EYH! wait! I'm not emo, is just the mixture of this weird feelings I have. Well you know mood swing which I always have. I'm blessed indeed that through out these difficult months I have friends who have spend their precious time and done wonderful things to brighten up my days and to turning my frowny face to a smily face.

I'M A CHEERFUL AGAIN! I'M ME AGAIN!

The past...

The Present..

I shall Love it! =)

I've gone through another stage of life..

I have back my faith, trust and hope again and once again live my life to the fullest!

BIG thank you to GOD, Family, babes and friends! =)

Last Kiss

I still remember the look on your face
Been through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered for just us to know
You told me you loved me so why did you go away, go away

I do recall now the smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane
That April 6th the beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms

But now I’ll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don’t know
How to be something you miss
Never thought we’d have a last kiss
Never imagined we’d end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips.

I do remember the swing of your step
The life of the party, you’re showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then you pulled me in
I’m not much for dancing but for you did.

Because I loved your handshake, meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you’d kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something
There’s not a day I don’t miss those rude interruptions.

So I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I’ll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe
And I’ll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it’s nice where you are.

And I hope the sun shines and it’s a beautiful day
And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed
We can plan for a change in weather and time
I never planned on you changing your mind.

ENJOY!

2 camps!

2 camps in a week was AWESOME! and of course is TIRING!!

I enjoyed myself.

1st Camp was National Drill Camp

2nd Camp was FUN camp!@ Outbac Broga!

Updates soon! =D

Hmmm

I will remember wat u said to me during my birthday last year..

something that matter to u as well. Was it a lie? I know my faults. I just need this chance. How can you be so cruel? =( Why didnt I get a reply from you? This relationship does not worth anything to you anymore?

God has plans for us..

Another devotion that hits me hard.. @_@ ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Ask and it shall be given unto you.. Seek and ye shall find..

“If you want to know what God wants you to do, ask him, and he will gladly tell you … But when you ask him, be sure that you really expect him to tell you.” James 1:5-6

Since God thought up the whole idea of relationships between men and women, parents and children, and friends, doesn’t it make sense to go him for direction when you have a problem?

As today’s verse says, “If you want to know what God wants you to do, ask him, and he will gladly tell you …” (James 1:5 LB).

Why do we have to ask before he answers? Because our relationship with God begins with faith. He doesn’t force things on us. He invites us into a relationship with him. So we ask.

Now I have to say, too many times I forget to ask. If you’re like me you’re just rushing through your day doing this, doing that, assuming it’s going to be okay. But you need to just stop once in a while and say, “God, I ask you, what is your direction?” He will gladly tell you.

And how does he tell you? An answer will usually come through one of two main ways – through people that are following him and through his Word. Get together with a few people who you know seek after God and ask them for their opinion. Look in their eyes and get an honest answer. And turn to God’s Word. Ask him, “God, what do you have to say about this?”

Some people think God is not interested in our relationships. After all, he’s got a universe to keep going. But he is interested; he made you! First Corinthians says, “But be sure in deciding these matters that you are living as God intended, marrying or not marrying, in accordance with God’s direction and help, and accepting whatever situation God has put you into” (1 Corinthians 7:17 LB).

I understand the hurts that can exist in some relationships, but the incredible promise of God’s Word is that he can bring beauty into any relationship. Not perfection, but he can bring beauty. Both people in the relationship have to agree and it will take some struggle to get there. But to give up is nowhere in the plan or purpose of God. That’s why you have to go to him for direction and guidance

Till then...

Love is a feeling, but it is also an action...

Hello everyone,

I would love to share this devotion of mine here as I find it very meaningful and it hits me at some point...

“Trust God all the time. Tell him all your problems, because God is our protection.”Psalm 62:8 (NCV)

What do you do with the feelings that come from disappointment in a relationship? You can’t stuff them away; they are just going to pop out somewhere else. You need to trust God and tell him all your problems because he is your protection.

Tell him you are angry or disappointed, or that you feel nothing. In those times when you feel nothing, when you feel like you’ve lost the love, go to God and tell him that -- then trust him. Hebrews 10:23 teaches us, “We can trust God to do what he promised” (NCV). And he promises to pour his love into our hearts.

Love is a feeling, but it is also an action. And when you lose the feeling to love someone, move forward with the action of loving them and that will help you reclaim your feelings of love. Is this hypocritical? No, it’s being human. We all lose the feeling to love at sometime. It usually happens when we decide to live with a problem instead of talking it out or openly facing it.

Start by telling God your feelings about the problem. From there, he can begin to give you the strength to talk to your loved one about it. As you do this, God will begin to restore your feeling of love for that person. He does what Lamentations 5:21 says, “Turn us around and bring us back to you again! That is our only hope! Give us back the joys we used to have!” (LB).

That is my prayer for you. Whether you are a husband or a wife who needs to let go of a disappointment or misunderstanding -- or if you need to accept the differences you have with a close friend -- I pray that God will begin to bring back your joy. But it’s a process, and it begins when you decide to trust God and tell him your feelings.

Missing!

Wahahaha!! Me did not regret taking up Marketing as my major. I am loving marketing more and more. The only thing that I dislike is that I will need to crap during exams. As for their real life working, is pretty interesting!

This semester I will be taking maybe 4 subjects. So far confirmed subjects are

1) Services Marketing

2) Marketing Research

3) Distribution Logistic

Marketing Research is pretty interesting! Every semester for this course, students will need to do up research on a topic around in KL area. However, for our semester is different! We have the advantage to go penang!! PENANG!!! I AM COMING!! wohoo~ We'll be doing our research in penang! XD Cant wait. We can enjoy our holidays and also working time together! XD

Okay thats all for my new semester. As usual, after few weeks attending lecture, I will get bored and try to skip classes! XD

Sad stuff happened today.. sigh..

I left my bottle in the lecture hall! D: When I realize it was too late because I was at the rojak stall enjoying my cendol and rojak with my friends. There's tis moment I wanted to drink water I was looking for my bottle only then I remembered that I left my bottle on the floor and forgot to take it along with me. I quickly get into the car and drove back to KPD A and it's not there anymore. D: who took it weh.. gahhh how careless am i.. =(

Intesting puzzle done by the Girls in 1st KL GB! XD

Senior + Pioneer Section!

till then..

I know

I know I made my mistakes..

I know I deserve to be treated this way

I know I deserve to not even talk to you

I know I deserve to be called hypocrite by you

I know I deserve to be disappear in front of you.

Things you said behind me is good enuf for me to understand how much you dislike me being around.

I understood and capture it.

I felt guilt already.. No matter how much I smile it could not cover up the pain I have inside me. one Friend that are real close to me can see that I am in pain and walked to me and tell me dont worry "Feli, everything will be alright, in life there's up and down.. dun let ur emoness kill overtake the joyful smile away. Remember you always have God to go to and friends to lend shoulder from. Be strong be it physical or emotionally".

I realize is never easy to be strong. I maybe strong from the outlook but not inside. I am darn tired with my emotions especially wen I'm alone at home.

You too must stay strong.. =)

This song makes me feel calm. Especially the lyrics. ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Amy Grant - Carry You

Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child
Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child, my child

If I can walk on water
And calm a restless sea
I've done a thousand things you've never done

And I'm weary watchin'
While you struggle on your own
Call my name, I'll come

Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child
Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child, my child

I give vision to the blind
And I can raise the dead
I've seen the darker side of Hell
And I returned
And I see these sleepless nights
And I count every tear you cry
I know some lessons hurt to learn

Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child
Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child, my child

I will carry you, my child

I see these sleepless nights
And I count every tear you cry
And call my name, I'll come runnin'

Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child
Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child, my child

I will carry you, my child, my child
I will carry you