Part of growing up

I guess is part of growing up in life. The pain the difficulties the joy the sorrows... When we fall down we gotta learn how to stand up and walk again. Never be afraid of falling because the pain make me realized and helped me to grow up in life.

For the past few weeks I found out that all I need was someone who can sit down, someone who can really listen to me and keep it within themselves, someone who can eat and talk at the same time. I realize how much I have been avoiding knowing that deep inside my heart I already got the answer. I have been leaving in a denial mode for the past few months! I have already let go! Is just the subconscious side of my mind telling me that I am still not over yet! I really cannot recall the number of times I persuaded myself that life still goes on no matter what. YET I fail to do so. For the past few months I've lost myself. I lost all my sense of belonging, the certainty towards this pain. My faith, trust and hope is gone! It was badly disturbed be it emotionally or physically and what's left within me was just wound. I guess is really part of life. When you fall down you gotta get back up and walk again in order to go through the right path way. There are much more to go through and waiting for me to fight through. I sat at home going through pictures after pictures which could actually made me upset and drain me down into my memory lane, but I realize that all I need was just time to talk to God and surrendering it all to Him and He will lead the way and show me the right path way.

Now, I'm done with it! Deep inside me I'm done wit it! Is over! I'm over it! I click open the folder and I brave enough to view one by one and look through it. Is all gone! and I'm happy about it! Wat is left is just memories. Which will remain forever..

Snowflakes is part of my addiction. I would say is the past of me.

but for now.. I'm NO LONGER addicted to it anymore! I found the reason to it and realize that it was me all along that being so naive. I'm awake now and will continue on my journey!

Thanks to the 40 days of fasting! I gave my time to God and pounder upon it. I guess in many ways I used to leave in denial mode. EYH! wait! I'm not emo, is just the mixture of this weird feelings I have. Well you know mood swing which I always have. I'm blessed indeed that through out these difficult months I have friends who have spend their precious time and done wonderful things to brighten up my days and to turning my frowny face to a smily face.

I'M A CHEERFUL AGAIN! I'M ME AGAIN!

The past...

The Present..

I shall Love it! =)

I've gone through another stage of life..

I have back my faith, trust and hope again and once again live my life to the fullest!

BIG thank you to GOD, Family, babes and friends! =)

Last Kiss

I still remember the look on your face
Been through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered for just us to know
You told me you loved me so why did you go away, go away

I do recall now the smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane
That April 6th the beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms

But now I’ll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don’t know
How to be something you miss
Never thought we’d have a last kiss
Never imagined we’d end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips.

I do remember the swing of your step
The life of the party, you’re showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then you pulled me in
I’m not much for dancing but for you did.

Because I loved your handshake, meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you’d kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something
There’s not a day I don’t miss those rude interruptions.

So I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I’ll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe
And I’ll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it’s nice where you are.

And I hope the sun shines and it’s a beautiful day
And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed
We can plan for a change in weather and time
I never planned on you changing your mind.

ENJOY!