Sometimes...

Sometimes... is better not to know the truth.. but then again.. be realistic..

I gotta chill and relax..

Christ gives me the strength to face anything. Philippians 4:13 =)

Anyway, AHHHHHHHH
This year my calender is filled with CAMPS date! Camp camp camp.
Estimated camps I would need to go : 8 camps! >.<
Where am I going to find the marneeee.. die die die. hahaha!

Till then..

I asked

Why did I dream of you? hmmm..

Anyway, My sem break is bored! Me rotting at home doing GB work and some house keeping and then a little of shopping only! arghh~ Where's the fun? =(

This year CNY I spend alot! Bought lots of things that I wanted. Wohoo~ I have yet to get some of the stuff i wanted. Eg : dresss.. arghh~ So hard to look for nice casual dress. D:

1) Short pants (Half Done)
2) Skirt (Done)
3) Purse (Half done. saw one nice one.. but.. izit worth? expensive weh. D: )
4) Few casual Dress
5) High Heels (Done)
6) Hand bag
7) Slippers
8) Few nice tops
9) New Lappie Bag for my precious laptop.(Done)
10) Vest (Done)
11) Scarf (Done)
12) Long Jeans (Done)
13) Black Shirt

Wohoo~ the list will go on n on n on.. gg.com

Till then...

Shopping Mode ON!

Yellow!
Chinese New Year is few days away! =D
Mua Shopping mode is ONNNNNNNNN..
Lets see the things I would wanna buy this time

1) Short pants (Done)
2) Skirt (Done)
3) New Purse
4) Few casual Dress
5) High Heels (Done)
6) Shoes (Nike, Adidas or maybe... idk. lol)
7) Slippers
8) Few nice tops
9) New Lappie Bag for my precious laptop. =P (Half done)

wohooo~ the list goes on. Will be going for shopping this few days.

till then..

Closed

Hoping and waiting for miracles.

We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live it. Proverbs 16:9

We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live it. Proverbs 16:9

We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live it. Proverbs 16:9

We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live it. Proverbs 16:9

We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live it. Proverbs 16:9

We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live it. Proverbs 16:9

We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live it. Proverbs 16:9

We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live it. Proverbs 16:9

Its Over~

Year 2 sem 2 is over! Time really flies..

Did pretty bad in my both papers. I guess I better start saving to resit my paper. I was just staring blankly at the papers. I wonder why too. It was too stress for me. I just could not handle it. I gotta deal with my emotions and also what is going on around me. The day before exam I couldn't really study. All I have in mind was the msg send by someone. If that's how you think of me.. I'm sad and hurt.. So be it.. I cant do anything but to silently cry and tell God my problems. Because I know I've lost your trust. Exactly 4 months we have been struggling... yet nth keeps me from continue to pray to God. Anyway, as promised, I wont be emoing so much in this blog. I wont wanna affect everyone. hmm..

Anyway, gonna be on sem break for about one month! YAY! meanwhile I have lots to do. Attending meeting and preparing for events. =)

stay tune for more updates.. =)

Love,
Feli

Nth

NTH NTH NTH! nth more I will explain or say because it does not make a difference. All I can do is to pray and hope that one day things will be clearly understand.

Them whom I heart most!
This would be my long time and life time friendS. Met them wen I'm in primary girls school. I'm glad I'm in a girl school where I am able to find awesome girl friends and we'll remain friends forever. No matter how far apart we are now, we'll always remember each other. =)

Them whom I heart most!
I'm thankful that God allowed me to serve in GB and met this bunch of crazy girls. With their prayer and support I believe we all can serve faithfully together. Heart them alot!

Them whom I heart most!

My life in secondary school life where I finally get to have guys friends and meet new people.
However, still I found a bunch of crazy girls and I rather be close to them because wat matter most is the quality not quantity. =)

Then again I make a move into my College life again I met a bunch of crazy girls.

Because of them my life is coloured up. =)

I'm also thankful for this guy.
Because of him, I passed my account papers in my foundation and degree too! =)
Thank you so much bardeeee. =D

Apart from that,
I'm thankful for my current new babes in University.
I get to know them not very long but I felt bless knowing them because they are all awesome people. I thank God for making them into my life

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will be uploading soon =)

To my other babes and friends.. dont feel left out if your pics is not in there. I cant upload all the pics I have. dont have time. Sorry. =( No matter wat.. I still love and care for the rest of the people I know. Of course in life I meet more than the people I posted up there.
I thank God for all of you that existed in my life. I do appreciate and love you all be it guys or girls.
A hug is worth a thousand words. A friend is worth more

G.NA - I'll Back Off So You Can Live

TRANSLATION

I’ll back off so you can live
Say it directly, looking at me
Say it looking into my eyes
Did you just say you wanted to break up?
Did you want to end it with me?

(I Know) You probably got a lady
(I Know) You probably got sick of me
Even though the tears are rushing to me

I’ll back off so you can live
That is all I can say
I’ll forget you so you can live better
So that you’ll be happy without me
The love that you tossed away, you can take it
Don’t even leave a trace behind and take it all
Don’t even say you’re sorry
Don’t worry about me

Your lips that told me tha you were going to leave
Why does it give me a reason to be angry today?
I need to stop you, the words don’t go out
And you are already moving far apart

(I know) You will forget me
(I know) I will really hate you
Even though you know everything

You! The reason I lived
You! Were all I wanted
You! It was me who only looked at you

Why? Why are you leaving?
Why? Why are you tossing me away?
If you were going to be like this
Why did you love me in the first place?

Do you happen to remember that day?
That day when we first met
I still remember it
The promise you made to me
That you will only care for me
That you will only protect me
That you will only love me
I believed your lies, I believed it

Did you really love me?
I’ll forget you so you can live better
Goodbye

sTRess LeVEL

wOHOOO~ My current stress level is way above! I cant believe I've been studying finance for the past 3 days continuously! I think I'm soon to go mad because I still don't really have confident in whether or not I could pass this paper. I dont wish to fail as I know I'm not going to score so I just aim to pass is the best I can do. Simply because I did pretty badly for this whole sem! AIKS! how come? Well, I've been emoing and wondering wat can I do to make things better. I cant sleep my problems away right?



BUT WAIT!!



I believe you people must be wondering why am I complaining tat I'm stress here and I'm emoing here but then wen some of you.. well.. maybe most of you see me.. I'm smiling and happily talking with you. I wonder why am I like tat too. I just cant help it especially wen I'm with my friends. I just would not want to make everyone around me to get stressed up with the mood i'm having and wondering what to do with me and so on. What I want in life for now is simple. I want people around me to smile widely. I want to make people smile.. AND not to forget I know that MY FRIENDS ARE with me. They support me in their prayer and also be by my side wenever I need them especially my babes and darlings.



Yeap! Some of you might call me a hypocrite. Seeing the 2 faces me. Some people will just love to hide their emotions from others as they are more introvert. They tend to not share their problem and outsider like us will never know wen he/she is sad or feeling unhappy. All we see is them smiling wenever we meet them. I have lots of friends like tat. Why? because life goes on and no matter wat we have to face it.. So face it wit a smile and it might just help things up.

I used to be super extrovert last time. But I guess I'm changing a little.

I don't mind as long as I see people around me happy is alright. Because I believe that Happiness is a journey not a destination.

Where I fall down is where I should CLIMB UP and begin my life again. So yea I felt down and I should get back up with nothing and start all over again in order to love life.

Anyway, back to my problems..



I've been having tons of problems. I've been struggling in dealing with my own emotions. There's this one of my small group member told me that I should sing "With Christ in the vessel we can SMILE at the storm" wenever I'm going through hard times as we know Jesus is always with us. I thank God for that.



I gotta deal with people around me. Well, I do love the people I love. Be it Him or Her. Because I believe that we must treasure the friendship we have. Hence, I'm trying my best to be the best I can.



I've been pretty self centered for the past YEARS. Being naive being selfish I guess. Which is obviously not the right thing to do. I guess I gotta pray harder to change myself. Jealousy kills. Envy kills.. being selfish KILLS TOOO.. ahhh I better stop thinking about myself and stop hurting others.



Maybe if I had just looked away that first night you came towards me, everything would be different and my heart wouldn't be aching. Ain't nothing but.. sigh..

How can I love again when I can't stop loving the one that hurt me so much?

I wish I could let go..



Why am I still holding on something that might not bring happiness to me but only worries, anger and jealousy? And I am letting go something that there might be chances to bring happiness to me?

I do care but I did not show it. I might not be the right one but I might one of them. Yesterday during sharing, once again something strikes my mind and heart.



I am burying the problems/matters/feelings deep withing me. And is only me that know how I should feel. There is no point wondering and asking for more. Knowing that I couldn't change a person mind set and I MUST care for others as well. I love I care I concern.

Let the word remain unsaid.

I will just remember the promises I made and not just by saying but action as well. Even if I gotta go through it myself along with God, I will because I know you too are going through alone with God. I might not be strong but I will do my best.



Ahh.. I'm being crappy. I'm aint linking everything I talked or I should say I write here. I'm sorry guys and girls. You know I love you all. muahz.



Anyway, Loving someone is of coursing hoping that he or she is happy with the life and be by their side be it as a normal people or a someone special to them. As long as I can be therefore them whenever they need me. So yea LOVE YOU ALL GUYS AND GIRLS. *hugs*

LOOK AT MEEE.. Seteresssing >.< nerd look.. shhh.. haha

PS : I will no longer emo in this blog. Will be having a personal emo blog on my own. All this while I've been doing it. Just that.. you all dunno. =P so yea.. last post on EMONESSS.. will make myself to post it on other blog instead. sorry people.. <3

Sorry for dragging you all into a emo mood always. PEACE! LOVE YOU! =D

Stepping over Our Wounds

If we open a quarrel between past and present, we shall find that we have lost the future.
- Winston Churchill

Stepping over Our Wounds

Sometimes we have to "step over" our anger, our jealousy, or our feelings of rejection and move on. The temptation is to get stuck in our negative emotions, poking around in them as if we belong there. Then we become the "offended one," "the forgotten one," or the "discarded one." Yes, we can get attached to these negative identities and even take morbid pleasure in them. It might be good to have a look at these dark feelings and explore where they come from, but there comes a moment to step over them, leave them behind and travel on.

Nerding mode ON

Exam is just next week. Will need to turn my nerd mode on! all the best to all year 2 & 3 students! =D


I gotta stop emoing for awhile and start focusing on studies! sigh~


Baby want you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

* CHORUS : I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

* REPEAT CHORUS

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There is so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

* REPEAT CHORUS

Awesome orientation

Every new semester Business Student Council will be organizing orientation to welcome the new intake in year 1.. I believe most of us enjoyed ourselves during the orientation day and nite knowing new friends and camwhoring. =)

Some of the new members in year one together with the korean students! =D

Me syoking sendiri

The members.. <3

Till then..

A song that could only once make me smile, can now only make me tear...

Nothing Gonna Change My Love For You

If I had to live my life without you near me

The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

(Chorus 1)
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

(Chorus 2)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

(Chorus 3)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year everybody! =)
Wishing you Happy Memories of 2010
and a Great Year 2011 ahead!
God Loves You..

Me just love fireworks. The best thing ever that I always look forward for during new year eve. The sound.. the colours and the lights! It's just so beautiful that I love to see it over and over again. What's my new year resolution? Yet to figure out. Wen I'm done I will post out and allow you all to read about it. =P

Final exams is 2 weeks away only. Time flies so fast. I've yet to study anything and I've ZERO knowledge about finance and my sales Management. Been pretty busy with other things.
Hope I'm able to cope up with my studies. amen!

You'll be in my heart.

Till then..