Before 2010 ends..

Hello Blogger..

Its already 31st December 2010. Time really flies, 2010 is coming to an end. For the past whole year I've learn a lot. Towards the end of the year is the most difficult months to me, but I do gain a lot. I'm hoping that next year will be a better year for me.
I sat down and think of the things I did in 2010. What have I achieved? I'm blessed that I have been walking with God throughout the whole year. I want to walk closer to Him.

This year memories there are sweet, bitter, and sour.. I wish that my memory will only store up those that are sweet, however, I know that the bitter and sour will still remain there. Memories hold and remain forever. It takes time to let go and forget the past and move on. I wish that time could just stop there and allow me to look back at what I did to reflect on myself. I have been very naive in my life. Immature in the things I do. Therefore, to all my friends out there especially my sistas! (you know who you are).. I would like to apologies for the wrong things I did throughout the year. I do hope to have a better memories with all of you. Past friends, present friends, future friends and I do hope it will be my forever friends. All of you created footprint in my life.. Loving you guys and girls~ especially my sistas and bro! =)


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Letting go the person you love sincerely is never easy. However, I know I gotta move on and carry on with life. Time will not stop there for me to cry over it and time will not tick backwards just for me to undo my mistakes. I know I will have to move on my life with this regret in me. Going to bed every night thinking why did I do that in the very first place. If only things would be different. Will I be able to forget you? I do not know how long more can I take up this pain. The pain that have been hunting me ever since that day itself. I will never forget the days we had the laughter and joy we shared and most importantly I will never forget the love you gave me and the love I received. I will always remember the best new year present ever you gave me that signifies our love and to begin my 2010. Even though I would have to end 2010 with this regret, I will still treasure the moments we had in the beginning. I know it will no longer be the same anymore., All I can do now is to surrender my pain to God and pray to God to relieve me from the thoughts that lead to depression. His timing is always perfect. No matter what, I do hope that you will be happy with the life you chose. Keeping you in my prayer list is all I can do now. Thank you for leaving your footprint in my life and allowing me to share the love you had. Your heart my heart our love...Will never forget this.. I do miss the moment we had together... Thank you for coloring up my life.

"Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know" - Jeremiah 33 : 3



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"God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect" - Hebrews 11 : 40


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Before the year ends.. I would like to say..
I love you Mom and Dad..
I love you my friends!
I love you my brothers and sisters in Christ!
I love you all who have been here for me..
Thank you for everything..
God Is GOOD! =D

I LOVE YOU GOD. - Thank you for being with me and loving me unconditionally. Muaxx~

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

PS : SORRY FOR THE EMO POST. >.<

Why Not Me by Enrique Iglesias

Christmas!

Hello EVERYONE..

I would like to wish you all

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
GOD LOVES YOU! =D

HMMMM~

Wall... Eye... Knee... =)

Till then..

IN MY HEAD!

JUST THE WAY YOU ARE

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are


Love the song so much. <3

Before

Before today ends.. I would like to say..
for the past 3 months.. It's not easy for me to go through.
But I have faith in God. Because His timing is always perfect.

Love,
Feli

Said!

It has been said..
It has been said..
It has been said..
It has been said..
It has been said..

My mind know what is right but my heart doesn't.
My mind know what is right but my heart doesn't.
My mind know what is right but my heart doesn't.
My mind know what is right but my heart doesn't.
My mind know what is right but my heart doesn't.

I do not understand.. I do not know why..
The very first moment I saw you, I gave you a big big hug and realized that my life has changed. The day you left till today.. things has change alot! Things can be so different in just a year time. The reason why I teared is because firstly, I missed the moments we had and secondly I was somehow touched that you came all the way to my house to look for me knowing I do not have time to look for you yet due to my exams and my commitment. However, the feeling is somehow weird. I feel the warmness but yet I felt cold at the same time. I wonder if is my own self causing it.
Anyway, glad to see you.. See you soon. Sorry that I couldn't hang out long as I got studies to catch up. I miss yah. =)

Anyway, Exam on saturday, BB & GB Christmas Party on sat! Wow.. its gonna be super tiring day for me. I wonder if I will still be alive the next day and head for bells performance in Tamil Methodist Church.

People! I got great newS!
I'm gonna pick up my guitar and start learning. I realized the guitar has been lying there for more than 5 months and yet I did nothing to it. I have the passion to learn.. I wan to play like a pro! I wan to play worship songs with it. Fact about me having the passion to learn guitar is because I do realized I need to get some talent in myself and start learning more things. I have wasted lots of time and therefore... Yea.. From jan onwards, I will be spending time to practice and practice and practice! =D Attending lesson soon! =D I'm really excited!


till then..

AHHHHHH

wohoo~ I have finally cut down on my sms-ing! =)

Lesser sms already. Mom said I'm good that I begin to sms and text less.

Anyway, sigh~ Exam is around the corner. I've not been studying. I freak out! I realize I cant multi task anymore in year 2 subject. =.= is either i can handle my emotions or I handle the subject! ah!! Where is my multitasking skill? gone! zzz~ haha no worries. Only for studies. Other stuff I'm still a pro! =D
Hmmm~
I'm not even paying attention in lecture. I'm so dead bah. Not even chapter one i understand.
Well, lets see, what i've been doing in class then? SMS.. and going emo and emo. zzz.
I hate it but I cant help it! sigh~ When I wan to study I cant even concentrate. End up I will just walk out the lecture hall sitting at the foyer pressing and going online. I guess is really time for me to emo less and start focusing in studies. I have been doing badly for the past few months in my studies! I must know wat come first. =) I must not let my mood affect mua study anymore! And I will do it. I am changing myself. Changing to be a better human for the future.. I shall prove to myself I can be a better Felicia.

I've been sleeping early this few days. Is good weh. Healthy! I am gonna keep this lifestyle going on. Keep myself occupied and make full use of my time. To gain more experience and knowledge and also to learn more new things. =) Life is all about learning everyday wat. =)

I've been hugging bear bear to sleep every nite..
I wonder will my pooh bears get jealous. =P
ciow!

Lifestyle

Hello Bloggers!

Sigh~ Life has been pretty hectic!
I realize my lifestyle changed!
I have much more responsibilities already.
I realize I have not been a good daughter to my mom therefore I have been trying to spend MORE time with my mom and also my family members and help out in the house work and stuff.. I rather spend lesser time chatting, online and even facebooking to do that. I realize I have been spending lots of time with my comp, fon and other stuff but not my family. and so yeah! =D.. I need a change! =)

I do realize too that I have taken up lots of responsibilities for next year. I need to start Praying for God's guidance and wisdom. I need Him. =)

So much to do yet so little time..
EXAMS is on its way... o NOHZZZZ.. =(
Need to start studying! ARGHHH~
STAY FOCUS! =D

I guess I have You... =( sigh~

why?

I do care but I did not show it. I might not be the right one but I might not be totally wrong?. Yesterday during sharing, once again something strikes my mind and heart.

I am burying the problems/matters/feelings deep withing me. And is only me that know how I should feel. There is no point wondering and asking for more. Knowing that I couldn't change a person mind set maybe is because I've change however, I'm accepting it and pondering over it to have a better me. and I MUST care for others as well. I love I care I concern.
Let the word remain unsaid.

I will just remember the promises I made and not just by saying but action as well. Even if I gotta go through it myself along with God, I will because I know you too are going through alone with God. I might not be strong but I will do my best.

If only things will get better

better off this way?
I don't wish to hurt you anymore.
I wish to make myself clear of what I wan and what I'm asking for.
I don't want to confuse u either.
If we are meant to be together.. no matter how far we're separated or how long...
We will be back together.
I'm sad. I'm hurt.. U're sad, u're hurt..
I shed my tears when I'm typing this..
Even if I cant accept it.. I gotta still face it.
Am I going to be alone facing this alone? Can I take it?
Will things change?
Will things be back the same?
How long will this last?
Did you change during this period of time?
sigh...
I'm sad.
I'm really sad with what is going on with my life. I felt useless. What is happening between us?
What is the missing GAP between us?
We been through so much together ever since we met. Even though we did not know each other well enough in the beginning, but you came into my life and make colors into my life..
Is things going to be totally different because of the problems we had right in front of us now? You and I can't even figure out the reason behind all this. It just comes naturally. I'm really afraid that the happiness we have now is just temporary. I want it to be permanent to me because I chose this pathway. I've got no one else to turn too. All I can do now is to let the fingers do the talking.
Do you even remember the things we said to each other?
How long more can I take it? How long more can You take it? I believe you have ur own problems which I dont understand. I never expect you to understand me fully. I'm really tired of being the one that realize things changes super duper fast between us. Tears just flow whenever I think of it. It hurts me badly. I'm afraid all this will change the love we had for each other. I don't want this to happen.. why? sigh~ I've been emoing for the past few MONTHS thinking bout it yet it can change nth.

Who can I actually seek advise from?
Who can actually understand me now?
Dear Mr. Pillow, can u respond to me? sigh..
Dear Mr. Bear, can u respond to me? You gave me warm hug every night.. but you couldn't speak to me to give me piece of advice.. sigh~

I miss us! really I do miss Us.. ~

Till then..

Bored!

Hello bloggers!

I'm pretty bored.
Having my sem break now. Have been rotting, working and watching dramas at home.
and last but not least.. CAMWHORE! too bored at home. >.<


No good internet connection at home! How sadz. Currently I'm using broadband simply because I've terminated my streamyx connection just to get the Cool Uni pack. Sadly, the promotion has over AFTER I TERMINATED MY LINE! arghh~ I was kinda pissed but wat can I do? I have no rights to sue TM nUT! =( Therefore, I'm changing plan to go for Unifi I guess. XD My area here will be launching end of the year. wao~ Hopefully my mom will approve me to get this package and she will pay for it! I'm freaking poor. Currently paying for the blardy Digi broadband thanks to my lame brother who always complain to my mom he cant live without internet! =( POOR. I wish I've money that drop from sky!

I've changed my fon! Iphone 3Gs! (white)
It was totally random. I didnt know that I will get one! XD
So now I have Nano, Itouch, Iphone and a nokia E72. =.= I think thats too much rite? Planning to get rid of my nano. As for my E72, my mom will be using it! WAO~
poooooring~ Have been spending alot recently. I will need to eat grass for the next few weeks! Or maybe months! GG.



My shopping mode is on! Anyone wanna shop wit me?
at the same time be my ATM machine! XD haha just kidding! =P

till then..

Another Sunday!

GOOD Day people!

Is Sunday.. Where else can I go?
I wanna listen to God's words. Headed to church for 11.45am Service as usual.
I prefer going to church being in God's holy place and pray and listen to His words.
Today Sermon was on "The Soul has its seasons" referring to Matthew 13:1-9 , 18-23

SOMEONE SLEEPING!!! XD

After service, headed to Nando's for lunch. Had great time fellow-shipping with my fellow church members. It was awesome.

Lousy ppl with lousy fon! hahaha

Time flies and is 3pm. I quickly fly back up to church for my bible class! Last bible study! wao! I'm so gonna miss this class. =(
I've learn along during this session. I've learn that I will need to be a servant in order to be a great leader. I hope I am able to apply it in GB and also in life as a leader. =)

RM 150 BOOK! @_@
however, I guess i worth. I learn alot through out the lessons.

till then..

Missing

Something is missing? sigh...

Connections! =(

Finally I found my way to connect back to the world! =D
Currently, I do not have internet connection at home.
I've terminated my internet connection simply because I'm gonna apply a new line which is the Unifi package. Is much more cheaper and I can high speed. =D Weee~ But I will need to suffer for one month plus without connection. TM NUT! =( sadz.

Anyway, Life is awesome. I've been enjoying every single day of my life with food.

Lately I've been buying lots of stuff. Maybe because of I'm too free and I always shop. Hand getting itchy. XD

I bought myself a purse. I've lost mine few months ago and finally, I've found one that I kinda like. Is expensive. RM200 plus though. Pooring. However, I like it. ;)



My shopping mode is ON!
But, I'm pooring. hmm.. sigh.. really poor.
I've got so many things in mind that I wanna buy. But I'm freaking poor. People always ask me where all my money wen to then? Well, sigh I've got lots of stuff to pay for and my allowance is not alot though. sadz.
I wish I've credit card and someone can pay the bill. aiks! >.<

Till then..

YCC Retreat 2010 @ Melaka

AWESOME scenery at Portuguese Settlement.

We were just on time for Sunset!

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BABA Cendol! ~ Yum yum
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Nonya Laksa!
♥♥

BABA Laksa~

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Satay Celup~
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ME! enjoying mua food!

FOOD THAT I DID NOT GET TO EAT DURING THIS RETREAT!
1) Chicken Rice Ball
2) Satay Babi!

ARGHH~ ME WAN! =( sadz..
Nvm, I will be heading to melaka town again in November with my Family! yay!


Honestly, I forgotten wat YCC stands for ! haha.. All i know it stands for Youth C__ C__.
YCC brings all the youth in the church to come together as one and do great stuff together.
Organization like Girls' & Boys' Brigade (BB&GB), Methodist Youth Fellowship (MYF), Senior Sunday School (SSS), Junior Sunday School (JSS) and Music Ministry Team (MMT).

This retreat, all the heads and committee members of the Youth will come together and have meetings to plan for next year program for the youth in their organization..

US!~ ♥♥♥
Not all in da pic because some of them wen back earlier. =(
They missed da FUN! SADZ

This round, we had our retreat in EL Santuary, Alor Gajah
The place is awesome and most importantly they have great chef that cooked yummy food for us to enjoy! I enjoyed the nature there. ♥ The best part is.. there's WIFI here! =D Thats why I can facebook and chat during meeting.. SHHH~ hahahaha! XD

Our chalet and Dorm

Makan Place~

Besides that,
The place have lots of dogs and puppies!
One of the dog just gave birth to 8 new born puppies! They are super duper cute! awww~
I feel like taking one of them home. =(
Me love doggies!

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FAT CAT! and SUPER LAZY cat! Meow~

LOOK AT THE LAME CAT! hahaha

We enjoyed ourselves there and we had great planning session. Even though is kinda draining wen it comes to meeting, but then with a bunch of crazy people around it turns meeting into fun and awesome meeting time! =D I just love them! =)

Crazy Officers in Girls' Brigade.
We Work and SERVE together! and most importantly we LOVE the same GOD =)

Before the individual planning starts, we had cloud and planning session. This is wen we list down and stick down all the things and dreams we had in our mind for our own organizations.

We hope to see more girls that Love God and know God..

BB's Side planning. =P



Team Building!

Paul and Polly~

The place have lots of dogs and puppies!
One of the dog just gave birth to 8 new born puppies! They are super duper cute! awww~
I feel like taking one of them home. =(
Me love doggies!

Satay Celuping with my officers~

Loving them! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Smile always~ =) Thats wat we do.
We Serve and we Smile in life!
SEEK SERVE AND FOLLOW CHRIST

Till then..