Before 2010 ends..

Hello Blogger..

Its already 31st December 2010. Time really flies, 2010 is coming to an end. For the past whole year I've learn a lot. Towards the end of the year is the most difficult months to me, but I do gain a lot. I'm hoping that next year will be a better year for me.
I sat down and think of the things I did in 2010. What have I achieved? I'm blessed that I have been walking with God throughout the whole year. I want to walk closer to Him.

This year memories there are sweet, bitter, and sour.. I wish that my memory will only store up those that are sweet, however, I know that the bitter and sour will still remain there. Memories hold and remain forever. It takes time to let go and forget the past and move on. I wish that time could just stop there and allow me to look back at what I did to reflect on myself. I have been very naive in my life. Immature in the things I do. Therefore, to all my friends out there especially my sistas! (you know who you are).. I would like to apologies for the wrong things I did throughout the year. I do hope to have a better memories with all of you. Past friends, present friends, future friends and I do hope it will be my forever friends. All of you created footprint in my life.. Loving you guys and girls~ especially my sistas and bro! =)


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Letting go the person you love sincerely is never easy. However, I know I gotta move on and carry on with life. Time will not stop there for me to cry over it and time will not tick backwards just for me to undo my mistakes. I know I will have to move on my life with this regret in me. Going to bed every night thinking why did I do that in the very first place. If only things would be different. Will I be able to forget you? I do not know how long more can I take up this pain. The pain that have been hunting me ever since that day itself. I will never forget the days we had the laughter and joy we shared and most importantly I will never forget the love you gave me and the love I received. I will always remember the best new year present ever you gave me that signifies our love and to begin my 2010. Even though I would have to end 2010 with this regret, I will still treasure the moments we had in the beginning. I know it will no longer be the same anymore., All I can do now is to surrender my pain to God and pray to God to relieve me from the thoughts that lead to depression. His timing is always perfect. No matter what, I do hope that you will be happy with the life you chose. Keeping you in my prayer list is all I can do now. Thank you for leaving your footprint in my life and allowing me to share the love you had. Your heart my heart our love...Will never forget this.. I do miss the moment we had together... Thank you for coloring up my life.

"Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know" - Jeremiah 33 : 3



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"God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect" - Hebrews 11 : 40


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Before the year ends.. I would like to say..
I love you Mom and Dad..
I love you my friends!
I love you my brothers and sisters in Christ!
I love you all who have been here for me..
Thank you for everything..
God Is GOOD! =D

I LOVE YOU GOD. - Thank you for being with me and loving me unconditionally. Muaxx~

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

PS : SORRY FOR THE EMO POST. >.<

Why Not Me by Enrique Iglesias

Christmas!

Hello EVERYONE..

I would like to wish you all

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
GOD LOVES YOU! =D

HMMMM~

Wall... Eye... Knee... =)

Till then..

IN MY HEAD!

JUST THE WAY YOU ARE

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are


Love the song so much. <3

Before

Before today ends.. I would like to say..
for the past 3 months.. It's not easy for me to go through.
But I have faith in God. Because His timing is always perfect.

Love,
Feli

Said!

It has been said..
It has been said..
It has been said..
It has been said..
It has been said..

My mind know what is right but my heart doesn't.
My mind know what is right but my heart doesn't.
My mind know what is right but my heart doesn't.
My mind know what is right but my heart doesn't.
My mind know what is right but my heart doesn't.

I do not understand.. I do not know why..
The very first moment I saw you, I gave you a big big hug and realized that my life has changed. The day you left till today.. things has change alot! Things can be so different in just a year time. The reason why I teared is because firstly, I missed the moments we had and secondly I was somehow touched that you came all the way to my house to look for me knowing I do not have time to look for you yet due to my exams and my commitment. However, the feeling is somehow weird. I feel the warmness but yet I felt cold at the same time. I wonder if is my own self causing it.
Anyway, glad to see you.. See you soon. Sorry that I couldn't hang out long as I got studies to catch up. I miss yah. =)

Anyway, Exam on saturday, BB & GB Christmas Party on sat! Wow.. its gonna be super tiring day for me. I wonder if I will still be alive the next day and head for bells performance in Tamil Methodist Church.

People! I got great newS!
I'm gonna pick up my guitar and start learning. I realized the guitar has been lying there for more than 5 months and yet I did nothing to it. I have the passion to learn.. I wan to play like a pro! I wan to play worship songs with it. Fact about me having the passion to learn guitar is because I do realized I need to get some talent in myself and start learning more things. I have wasted lots of time and therefore... Yea.. From jan onwards, I will be spending time to practice and practice and practice! =D Attending lesson soon! =D I'm really excited!


till then..

AHHHHHH

wohoo~ I have finally cut down on my sms-ing! =)

Lesser sms already. Mom said I'm good that I begin to sms and text less.

Anyway, sigh~ Exam is around the corner. I've not been studying. I freak out! I realize I cant multi task anymore in year 2 subject. =.= is either i can handle my emotions or I handle the subject! ah!! Where is my multitasking skill? gone! zzz~ haha no worries. Only for studies. Other stuff I'm still a pro! =D
Hmmm~
I'm not even paying attention in lecture. I'm so dead bah. Not even chapter one i understand.
Well, lets see, what i've been doing in class then? SMS.. and going emo and emo. zzz.
I hate it but I cant help it! sigh~ When I wan to study I cant even concentrate. End up I will just walk out the lecture hall sitting at the foyer pressing and going online. I guess is really time for me to emo less and start focusing in studies. I have been doing badly for the past few months in my studies! I must know wat come first. =) I must not let my mood affect mua study anymore! And I will do it. I am changing myself. Changing to be a better human for the future.. I shall prove to myself I can be a better Felicia.

I've been sleeping early this few days. Is good weh. Healthy! I am gonna keep this lifestyle going on. Keep myself occupied and make full use of my time. To gain more experience and knowledge and also to learn more new things. =) Life is all about learning everyday wat. =)

I've been hugging bear bear to sleep every nite..
I wonder will my pooh bears get jealous. =P
ciow!

Lifestyle

Hello Bloggers!

Sigh~ Life has been pretty hectic!
I realize my lifestyle changed!
I have much more responsibilities already.
I realize I have not been a good daughter to my mom therefore I have been trying to spend MORE time with my mom and also my family members and help out in the house work and stuff.. I rather spend lesser time chatting, online and even facebooking to do that. I realize I have been spending lots of time with my comp, fon and other stuff but not my family. and so yeah! =D.. I need a change! =)

I do realize too that I have taken up lots of responsibilities for next year. I need to start Praying for God's guidance and wisdom. I need Him. =)

So much to do yet so little time..
EXAMS is on its way... o NOHZZZZ.. =(
Need to start studying! ARGHHH~
STAY FOCUS! =D

I guess I have You... =( sigh~

why?

I do care but I did not show it. I might not be the right one but I might not be totally wrong?. Yesterday during sharing, once again something strikes my mind and heart.

I am burying the problems/matters/feelings deep withing me. And is only me that know how I should feel. There is no point wondering and asking for more. Knowing that I couldn't change a person mind set maybe is because I've change however, I'm accepting it and pondering over it to have a better me. and I MUST care for others as well. I love I care I concern.
Let the word remain unsaid.

I will just remember the promises I made and not just by saying but action as well. Even if I gotta go through it myself along with God, I will because I know you too are going through alone with God. I might not be strong but I will do my best.