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I need to blog more OFTEN!
Dowan ppl to complain tat my blog is Fatt Mouing.. BLEH! =P

O well, I am now thinking whether to have the habit of carrying my camera everywhere I go or not. I wanna capture good pics and things that are happening around me. So that I am able to look back at any day of my year and recall what I did, who I met and what I've learn. Probably I will get tired of taking photo every single day.. I guess I will give up one day? hahaha.. Still considering though... Me now want a good CAMERA! not DSLR but at least a better camera than my current one. =( But I am poor though.. How? =(

I am poor.. I only can afford Lego Camera. =D

Sob.. One of my birthday wish definetly is gonna be..
to own a good digital camera. Not DSLR but just a better digital camera will be good enuf. =D Currently me owing a Canon camera and Olympus. Not good enuf. =( POOOOR~ hahahaha..

Currently, I am having my sem break. I wonder how much weight will i put on after this holiday. AMEN! me wan sports. Me going for exercise but i am lazy. kekeke.. Good Luck..

Till then...

U-Turn?

Is there a U-turn in life?
Is there always a second chance for us to prove ourselves?
If there is will we ever appreciate?
I guess this is life. O well..

Finals has finally over! Is my Sem break! YAY!
should I be happy? I'll have about one month of break?
I hope to get a suitable job for myself to earn side income and also not to rot at home doing nth since I do not want to go out so often and spend all my money away! I am poor though. =( Dam sad. I wonder how i spend my money. sigh~
Overall, I did OK for my exams. Except for Management Accounting! the paper sux! sigh. I just hope I pass the paper. I know is wrong because it will definitely pull down my CGPA. However, what more can i expect. I am so lousy in account weh.. I wonder how am i doing to survive in business field. =( sigh.

Going into Year 2 by the month of July. Hoping for the right path way to my future. God bless me.

till then

End up

I dowan this to happened
End up I am being ignore again.
I guess I deserve it. Dun blame ppl Feli..
Like others always said : ask myself what I have done and what who am I to judge.

once again.. Wonder why..

Till then

Don't Understand

Extremely tired this few days.
I do not know why. I just can't understand my own feelings.
I only know you play an important role in my life. Having said that, whenever the cold war begin it will just affects my mood. I wonder what am I going to do now for the next few days/weeks or maybe months to go through this. No matter what, a fact is a fact. How people want to think of me I can't give a dam on it because I am no one to stop him/her from thinking the way they are thinking right now. The only think I can do is to explain and that's it. I can't do much. Is basically up to the person.
I realize that there are lots of people surrounding me are never truthful. Maybe I have yet to meet one that are total opposite. I can never understand. Indeed I am jealous with others that have people that care for them sincerely and also understands them. I guess I do not deserve all this because like what others always said to me.. They always ask me to think what I did. Think of what I have done. I guess all this while I am someone that are not worth of a friend at all and someone that should never exist in others life.

till then...

Hmm

How does it feels like to be care by others?
How does it feels like to be loved and protected by someone whom really cares for you?
How does it feels like to be the most important person in his/her life?
How does it feels like to be treated differently?
How does it feels like to be placed first in what ever things he/she does?

I wonder...

Five Language of Love
1) Quality Time
2) Acts of service
3) Words of affirmation
4) Gifts
5) Physical Touch

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Anyway, I finally got an offer in CSU Program.

I guess is fated for me to take up this program. So yea, I am going to sit for the paper here in Help. I am going to just stay in Malaysia for the rest of my degree. Is not my will. Is just that I gotta follow the flow. What more can I ask for? To those who understands and know how I'm feeling now. I do hope that you guys ignore me cause i know i am emo-ing again! =(
Anyway, I should be lucky to get an offer from CSU program simply because of certain reasons. I am now waiting for the offer letter only. Hope it will not gives me problem for me to settle.
Anyway, from the very beginning, I should have insisted in what I wanted. I should just be like him. Not caring about how others feel and what others think as long as is the way I wanted. However, I don't know why I can't. Even she admitted that I am soft hearted thats why is easier to talk to me and discuss with me. Is that the reason why I can't get the things I wanted in my own way? People do take advantage. hmmm..
Nah.. Dun worry.. I'm just complaining a little. I did not blame on anything. I am happy with what I have. Just letting out how I'm feelings. Is really hard to explain my feelings in words though..

Am I really sorry to those of my friends that I've hurt especially those that are close to me. If you think I am using you then I am sorry. Maybe the way i express myself and the way I talk is not good. I dun mean to do anything that hurts. I do not know how many i hurt but i do know humans are not perfect. If you think I am not worth of a friend. Then I can't do anything.
I am treating everyone with all my heart.. I am sorry. Truly I am. I appreciate each and everyone of you that appeared in my life. God is so kind to me.

Study Mode : ON

Happy Easter

HAPPY EASTER everyone! God loves You all..

Muacccccks

till then..

Random Camwhore

It begin with only 1 pics. We were dead bored sitting at the food court waiting for time to pass. So coincident my this crazy friend was having her break time and she's rotting at food court as well. Hence, we sat together and started laming.. and I took her fon and start testing her camera.. It begin with me and her taking pics.. Ended up I started to camwhore in the FOOD COURT..!!! #%$$#%^$%@# hahaha.. I can't believe it. =P 52 pics weh!!! haven include those i deleted. heehehehe .. If u wanna see more, go to my facebook profile. Lameness place to camwhore. =P

The 1st Pic we took..

Follow by this.. and so ONN.. hahaha.. U know wat i mean.. =D

I just love this pic..
Her expression was real.
I told her I love her and i wanna kiss her.. there goes her expression. lol
But then, I know she loves me.. right gillian =)

They said I look like my Boy Friend. ARGHH~ no! I'm me myself and I. =)

EPIC!!! =)

I'm dead boring now!
I wonder wen can I finish up my ACC103 assignments and then proceed to study for finals. Finals coming soon! =(
I'm gonna make myself become a nerd. heeeeee~
Once finals end, I'm so gonna look for a job. I need $$. I'm poor.
I need lots and lots of marnee! and obviously the main thing is to kill time. I dont like rotting at home even though is just one month! still I dislike rotting. =)

Till then...