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Before the clock strikes 12.. I should blog about today!

Dull day!

Well, the night before I barely slept! I'm on bed since 3am boiling drama while waiting..

As usual, I will boil my drama till i doze of to my dreamland. I wonder what side effect will I have later. >.<>.<>

BUT!

I will always remember the words and advice someone said to me..

Never give up easily... I know I can do it! =)

Be who am I.. =)





till then..

Boil Boil

I've decided that I should not publish the emo post therefore, I save it as draft.
I've been emo-ing for the past few weeks for some reasons. I know I should live my life happily yet I did not do it. I did not ask for more. I just need time. I wonder if it really helps. hmmm

Anyway, I've been watching TVB dramas..Is time for me to watch some English Movies to improve myself and also to catch up with the movies.. Any recommendation? I need to watch so that I dont have to spend my time emo-ing at home.. =D

Currently watching...

Sister of Pearl..
Is quite interesting..

Fly with me..
Boring and lame drama.. >.<

Suspect in love
Is sort of not so interesting drama to be watch.
So I'll never recommend it to you all. =)
I'm bored thats why i'm watching. =)

Till then..

Reminder to myself...

When you feel like giving up,

remember why you held on
for so long in the first place..

Typical me..
Stay strong. =)

till then..

....

What I'm feeling now is



..........................................................



I just feel like DOT-ing every min..

I'm out of words.

Even the blind can see that me and u have some problems in between..

But I guess I sux thats y is not worth to even talk to me. >.<

What hurt me most is the moment I tried to be normal and there isn't any response.

I guess I'm naive and yes! It hurts and I really gotta say goodbye to the past and I will need to get used to being ignore and swallow the feeling of wanting to pull this friendship back.

Follow the flow and pray.. thats all i can do now.

I know I will be emo for the next few days, weeks or may be months. Sigh..

wen can I get this over? I'm sorry...

I know my tears can never stop flowing out wenever I'm alone thinking about it.

And I know lots of ppl pity u.. and putting the blame on me.

Is because of me ur life turned miserable.

I know what I should do. *Pooof* I'm disappear from now on.

I promise.. If this helps u.. I'm happy for u..



I guess I should actually create another blog and make tat blog private and not letting people to feel tat I'm such an emo kid. and not forgetting I'm a selfish little gal. =(

(Taking in consideration)

SORRY truly sorry...

till then..

hmmmm

S.T.O.P
F.U.L.L S.T.O.P
FULL STOP
STOP
SELF CONTROL
BUT
W.H.Y?
H.A.P.P.I.N.E.S.S

BECAUSE?
♥ F._._._._._._.S ♥


WORTH?
-IDK-
BUT
A.P.P.R.E.C.I.A.T.E.D

FELICIA CHOONG
SHUT UP
*tearsdrop*
*willwalkawayleavingnth*
Let the word remain unsaid
bye

Meeting!

Is sunday!
I thought after drill competition I can rest on Sunday! =(
However, I cant! I headed up to PJ Trinity Methodist Church for meeting..
I gotta attend the meeting because I'm the secretary. I'm newbie there that know nuts and blur fella with direction-less. =(
I stoned in the meeting writing minutes and listening to issues. haha!
This is my day! yawn~
I almost had an accident today on my way home after meeting. @_@
I wasn't focus enough I guess.. sigh..
Thank God I'm safe..
There are things that bothering me inside my mind. I hope my brain can stop working and stop thinking of the same issue that bother me so much which wont make a difference at all even how hard I tried.
And maybe is cause I am stoning. Dangerous driver! =(
I regret not handling the issue well enough..
I regret for the things I have done!
But there isnt any turning back because I can't clap with one hand.
Did I try my best? I sux at handling all this.
I wanna stop hurting humans feelings. !!! =(

If only I can be as lucky as pooh to have piglet as his good friend
that can be forever there with him...
Friendship's Love

till then..

Saturday!

I'm starting to get worry about my eye bag and the pimples on my face.

I've been having sleepless night.. and my pimples is coming out like nobody business and my eye bag! =(

Anyway, on saturday morning, I woke up early in the morning headed to church at 9.30am to pick up mua friends and head to taman connaught for dim sum! I was bored.. so decided that I should have some dim sum. Is dam random! =D

Dim Sum without Chinese Tea is not Dim Sum session! =D
Is so call tradition already lar. XD hehe

The food we ordered.
The price was reasonable enough lar.. =)

Right after our breakfast, we head straight to church to prepare the girls for their competition
22nd May 2010 is 1stKLGB big day!
It has been a long time since we last participate in drill competition. We were all nervous.
We spent about 2 hours preparing and off we boarded up the bus at 2pm and straight to Methodist Primary school.

Opening Ceremony..

Waiting for their turn...

The girls, Shana and I put a lot of effort in this competition.
In the end, all our effort was worth!
We did it!
We brought back the challenge trophy back to 1stKL!
We proved to ourselves that the time spend and the effort given was not a waste..
However, there is still a lot of rooms for improvement..
We will do better and work hard for the coming National Competition! =)
but most of all the right attitude to do all our best and God will see through everything!!
110% Love to 1stKL
200% Love to God! =)

The left side is the smaller trophy that all girls will have one and keep it at home.

The right side is the challenge throphy..

On saturday night, it was an awesome yet moodless night for me.
After GB meeting around 7.30pm, we head straight to Subang to have our dinner in a western restaurant name Wind Mill. Is located somewhere near Subang Medical Center..

I personally dislike this candle.. It blocked my view talking to my friends opposite me and is the wrong partner! haha! ended up, we blew off the fire. =)

Babes! Loving them

Mua FOOOD

Right after dinner, we went head straigh to the Curve for drinking session.
We was bored I guess and... I personally feel like drinking so that I wen I go home I can have a good night sleep. However, I told myself I will have my limit.. =)
I went home and continue my own session because I can't drink so much outside. haha!




Hoping for more night out session with my this 2 babes and them!. I will miss the moment we used to enjoyed.. and I hope it will never end. Life is too short to regret... =(



till then..

Complicated Heart

Another nice song. =D hahaha
This few weeks I dont know why I will not get sick of repeating a song. lol

Blah

Blah Blah!
I spent my whole afternoon rotting at home boiling tv.. I'm bored.
But I do not have mood for anything at all. Sigh~ I can't even smile sincerely these few days. o.O yes i know i know.. I have been emo-ing for the past few days. I'm sorry? =(

Didnt do much these few days.
I am suppose to finish off 2 powerpoint presentation! I've yet to touch. @_@ die die..

I think I need new flip flops.. any recommendation?
Under budget! but I dowan to wear pasar malam flip flops!

Who say we only can get yummy satays in Kajang? hehehhe..
U can have it in Peel Road also! =D
Is yummy to me lar.. Too bad I cant order Kambing!!
My mom dun allow me to order. =(

The Nerd Version of South Park animation. =D

The better version!=)

I just feel like blahing the whole dam day. I am moodless and I dont know how to deal with it. If only things can be better. =(
BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! ~
What else can I ask for? =(

Till then...

Missing card!

I only had 1 hour of sleep the night before thursday!

I'm so dead. I woke up feeling so lazy however, I gotta get up and go for work. Sigh..
As usual, I took LRT to pudu and walked to the office.
I was freaking blur at that moment inside that LRT that I dropped my touch N go card without me realizing it until the Train door closed. Is a bit too late. Hence, I am freaking worried that I couldnt get out the station and need to pay up the fine! However, I was pretty lucky that the security guard at the Pudu station let me go. =)
I was moodless at tat time. I told myself I was lucky enough that the card doesnt have a big amount in it or else I'll be getting nagging from my parents! arghh~
I'll need to go get new touch N go card. Without it, I am so not going to go through toll, take LRT or ETC..Anyone cares to sponsor a new touch N go card for me? =P
I'm really poor enough.
During lunch, I took out 20 bucks and the next moment i check my pocket, is MISSING! T_T
sigh.. wat a bad day. Moodless.

During work, I keep on yawning and I am freaking sleepy. I almost fall a sleep and I got a little headache due to lack of sleep. I wonder if I am working everyday, I will sure get scolding and in the end.. I will get fire! =( God Bless Me. haha..

Head home, and I saw kitten inside the box in my ROOM!
Thanks to my lame bro.. =.=
Ended up he got scolding from me and he started to lame wit me with the cat.
In the end, the cat gotta go off.
Because.. somehow, my parents wont allow pets. Unless Dogs. =D

I was really very hungry, and tired.. I get frustrated easily these few days. I think is because I am lack of sleep. Somehow, whenever there are small matters that causes problems, i tend to get angry easily and simply say things. Is bad! Very bad.. =(

Ice Cream for supper! =)
I really need some sweet things in my life now!

Somehow, this ice cream reminded me that I gotta go one Utama to go get new sticky!
Is finishing! Thanks to my bro as well. He always steals my stuff to eat! =(
Sticky.. Here I come!!
Pooor =(

After the yummy ice cream, headed for mamak session. I was bored and I didnt wanna stay at home to rot and stone thinking non sense things. So headed to mamak!

Limau ice with extra Limau!
one of my favs in mamak

Maggie Goreng.. with extra limau on it! Yummlicious!! =)

I HATE SMOKERS!
But I wonder.. can smoking really cause us to have less stress?
Hmmm..

Till then...

Dairy!

I got a date!
With my uni mate.
I wasnt in the mood to go out, however I miss her badly so I met her up in one Utama right after MGS session. I was bored at MGS. Thank God it was only 1 hour plus there.

I'm already tanned thanks to the drill practices I had on every Sundays! No more practice till the National Drill Competition (If we are going for it) hahaha!

Anyway, my face currently have 2 tone colour! Thanks to my specs. I hate wearing specs under the sun! I wan contact lens but I am lazy.. What to do. hmm

hmm.. Right after MGS School, I rushed myself to One Utama. From MGS to One Utama it takes at least half and hour with the jam and the speed I am having..
Is already 2.40pm and movies starts at 3.20pm! I am suppose to eat before going for movie. Ended up, I reached at 3.10pm.. So we decided to have brunch in the cinema! We bought Popcorn, and mash potatoes! Yum yum..
We watched : Dairy Of A Wimpy Kid
Me wanna read the book! Anyone of u got the book? Can I lend it? =D

Tada! We had BBQ Plaza as our proper Breakfast + Lunch + Dinner! Yum Yum

Ending of everything!! Blacky

Anyone of u who plan to go for BBQ Plaza, pls bring me along? =( Me likey the food and the sauce!!!!


This are the 3 things that keep me awake and alive and KILL time for me!

Astro Remote, Tv Remote and DVD Remote!

till then...

Feelings?

If only God is not invisible and can speak right to my heart.

till then..

PS: I dowan my blog to look so emo anymore and affects everyone. So I am not posting so much emo stuff. =( sigh..

Each Tear

There’s something that I want to say,
But I feel I don't know how.
Until I just can’t hold it one more day,
So I think I let it out.

You’re on my mind more than I may show
You’re in my heart more than you may know
And the last thing that I want,
Is to you to fall apart.
Your future will be clearer,
I want you to remember.

In each tear
there’s a lesson, (there’s a lesson)
Makes you wiser than before (wiser)
Makes you stronger than you know (stronger)
In each tear (each tear)
Brings you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what your meant to be...

We can’t change the things,
That we done, that’s in the past.
But fighting won’t get us anywhere,
So if you want, Here’s my hand...

Every night there is one thing I do
I bow my head and pray for you (pray for you)
And the last thing that I want,
Is for you to fall apart
you're future will be clearer
I want you to remember

In each tear
there’s a lesson, (there’s a lesson)
Makes you wiser than before (wiser)
Makes you stronger than you know (stronger)
In each tear (each tear)
Brings you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what you're meant to be

You're much more than a struggle that you go through
You're not defined by your pain, so let it go...
You’re not a victim, you're more like a winner
And you’re not in defeat, you're more like a queen


In each tear
there’s a lesson,
Makes you wiser than before
Makes you stronger than you know (stronger than you know)
In each tear ( in each tear)
Brings you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what your meant to be

In each tear (each tear)
there’s a lesson, (there’s a lesson)
Makes you wiser than before (wiser)
Makes you stronger than you know
In each tear ( Make you so much more)
Bring you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what your meant to be

No no we can’t be held down
No no oh noo I I I can’t held down
You you you can’t be held down
We we we can’t be held down

Love

It makes you so much stronger (stronger)
It makes you so much wiser (wiser)
In each tear (in each tear)
And You so close to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak can’t take away you’re meant to be

Kena FFK!

O.O
I was ffk-ed by the Mufti Supplier. =(
I was supposed to meet her up today however, she did not turned up!
She sms-ed me and said tmr only she will meet me up! HOW SAD!
I was so excited to see the new mufti! But sadly, I kena FFK! how sad! =(

Anyway, before bells practice headed down to Togo for bubble Milk Tea! I am addicted to the milk tea thanks to Lee Yen! ARGHH hahaha. Thanks gal!
After drinks, head down to petaling street for claypot chicken rice!


I HATE COLD WAR!
Not just one side but both side.
Friends and Him. WHY? sigh~
If only I can talk to someone I feel nice with now. =(
Anyway, who will care about me now? sigh~

till then...

..

Even if I were to follow my heart, I always got the wrong decision. sigh~

The we should just keep quiet?
Let the word remain unsaid?
hmmm...

If only a sincere sorry can be shown and can make a different? =(

till then..

Rot in Genting!

Saturday~
Woke up early in the morning followed my mom to places that she wanted to go.
So I am just a follower. =P

Look at the Dog.. So sad right? Is PINK! =(

After everything, headed to church for GB as usual.
Wasnt really a great day for me as I was not in the mood yet I gotta stand up and make sure everything is alright and I gotta put on fake smile to not make people worry.. sigh~

GB Awards day 2010 finally over. Congraz to those who got their awards and for those who did not get please do not let the disappointment bring you down. There is always next time and take this time to do better and earn for the awards. =)
Always be humble in what u do so that u will be able to learn more and to gain more knowledge instead of being proud with what you have. =)

Right after GB headed straight up to Genting!

On the way up! I was bored in the car! Thanks to my precious Ipod! It helps me to kill time.!

My parents got free rooms hence, we went up with a bunch of My dad's friend.
We checked in to the Highlands Hotel and had our dinner at a restaurant name something something! Everyone in Malaysia know that eating in Genting is freaking costly. However, we have no choice! we ate around RM900 plus food!! I wasn't in the mood so I just ate watever is given to me and thats it. I call it my breakfast, lunch and dinner. o.O

After my dad parked his car, I saw awesome view!

In total, my bro ate about 5 bowl of rice including mine! XD his stomach is a rubbish bin! Big enough the fit lots of rice!

Chicken HEAD! izit??

Right after dinner, the whole bunch of them headed to Casino.. Left me and my bro alone! I was super moody and I do not have mood for anything. I was super sad also that my bro wouldn't wanna try his luck entering the casino with me so I decided to stone with him around genting, However, after few mins of considering, my bro changed his mind and off we try our luck! I walked in first and I managed to pass through! My bro FAILED! haha. I was freaking scared, I did not care about him, he headed back to the room and online and stone there all alone. =( I then look for my dad and he brought me around! =D
I was excited and at the same time I wanna find something to entertain myself.
So on this very day, I learned how to play Baccarat!! I told myself I will not get addicted to it! I promised my parents and also myself! =D Is not good to gamble! =) hahaha!

=D =D =D My capital was RM 300
After everything, I had RM 700! =D
It was my first time so is not so bad lar. =P thanks to my dad!
I will remember my promise to myself and also to my parents! Will never get addicted!
Is just for fun!!!

I was just lucky lar. No skill.. =) Anyway, just a small amount. =P
After few hours we left and went walking around the hill exploring genting with my Dad with a cup of starbuck in my hand. I was freaking cold! I was wearing short pants and T shirt only! hahaha.. Freezing but I enjoyed walking like that.. It reminds me of the days I spend walking around and wondering around with friends. The whether there was just windy. Not as cold as I think it will be. SAD CASE weh! =(

It was only 26.6??? hahaha
Starbucks! =D mua fav!

All ready to go get mua starbucks and
for a night walk! Boring walk! =(
FYI I was on the fon. =.=

The whole night there I was with my Ipod! I was freaking blardy moodless! All I feel like doing is to listen to musics!

Next morning,

The morning view from my room! Awesome!
I saw cable cars.
They look so tiny. haha!

Camwhore before leaving. XD
This is so me..
See my PANDA EYES?? @_@

we headed back down to KL and reached KL around 12ish..
Head straight to church for service. I know I'm late but hey! Is better to be late than never! So i walked in and sat down and listened to the sermon! =)
After service, walked to mydin to get gloves for the girls as they need it for their drill competition. It was their requirement! =.= I was dam speechless after reading the mail! anyway, nth can be done. So we just follow the rule set by the committee. =)

My head was spinning. I wasn't feeling very good as I did not really sleep the previous night in genting. I cant sleep!. Sigh~ and I stood under the freaking hot sun for 3 hours! @_@ I wanted to sit down under the shade and look at the girls practicing their drill. But I told myself I cant do that because I gotta go through everything with them only they will feel what they do is worth for themselves! So I do what I'm suppose to do to show good example.. and now I got 2 very obvious colour on my face thanks to my specs and also 2 very obvious different colour in my arms and my legs! ARGHHH~ until now my head still gg.. haha
Well, I hope is all worth it as today will be the final practice and the competition will take place on 22nd May which is this coming saturday! All the best girls! U girls can do it! =) Muaxxx

Till then...

I do not know what will happen next
What does this friendship means to us? It meant alot to me that words cannot be explained.
All I know is that this is not how things will end to me because is not worth at all..
I dont care even if tears flows out every night,
I dont care even if I got sleepless night..
Until the day things get better with a better feeling and emotion...
I guess all I can do now is to stand at the corner to see and support you through prayers.
I know I am useless and hopeless as a friend to you NOW!
I do not know if I am still consider someone u will even bother to take advise from after the words I said to you yesterday, however things will not change in me because I treasure the friendship we had no matter how we are, where we are and what we are.. I know you too.. I understand that it takes time for u.. and I will not blame u. =) I will not be selfish anymore to think of myself and more. I realize I did nth for you before as a friend but to give you troubles and sorrows in life. I am sorry. Even though we have all the nice memories but then the sad memories is always the hurt and painful one. Scar will always be there and this is the scar which made by me Felicia Choong. I am sorry. and I am blessed that at least there are sweet memories in our friendship life.