The Losers

Another BORING DAY!

Wake up in the morning had nth better to do.
I wanna stop thinking lame stuff therefore I continue watching my drama. I have whole tons of drama waiting for me to watch. =) I wanna stop thinking. Yesterday, like I said, I drank. I felt alot better after drinking and I can sleep better. peacefully. However, I woke up quite early for dunno wat reason. Headache! =( I stone till 12 and head over to MGS school for GB session..
Going to school compound makes me feel like I'm in school life again! I miss my school life weh. Where I got no worries about anything besides exams. =( I realize as our age is catching up. As we grow older we learn more things and experience things that we never thought we will experience. Life o life~....

One of the reason why last time we are so active in uniform body. hahaha!

Saw this in MGS school, I took it down as I saw one of my friend there.
She change alot though.. Miss the old us! =( I guess she made a change in my life now. hmm~

After MGS I went for a movie! The Losers. It was pretty interesting show. Normal for me nth exciting compare to the other action movies.

Bought a cup of Ice Lemon tea! I am coughing badly yet i drink this. hahaha! good luck! who cares anyway... hmm~

Look at the sun.. is so RED! me love the sun. so round...

Today is WEDNESDAY! I wasnt really craving for anything ever since Sunday. I haven been eating much as well until today.. I crave for tau fu! =D.. here's my fav! yum yum. I know some ppl couldn't take the smell.. But HEY! is nice alright. At first I couldn't take the smell too. But once u try it.. U'll love it, and u will eventually crave for it off and on just like me. =P







I hope I can sleep well tonite? If not I am so gonna get myself drunk! hahahaha~
Kidding. Bad for liver. =( anyway, Who cares. I am gonna stone and drama this is all I can do now. Holiday SUX!

I am working tmr! hope tmr I can pass my time easily. sigh~

Currently Watching a fistful of stances.. TVB Drama! This is all I can do to keep myself from not thinking. and my cough and slight flu sux.. sigh..


Till then....

IP Man2

Was rotting at home hence I went over to time square to watch movie.
IP Man. The show was okay. Not as nice as Ironman 2! =D
Anyway, Bored at home nth to do.. sigh~

Each step in life counts...

Ticket for IP Man2 movie!

Random shot of time square.. I am still deciding whether I should carry my lousy camera around went I'm out of the house. haha..

In the night, I'm bored.. I'm pretty down. I'm moodless. I dont have the mood to eat, to sleep to do anything. sigh~ All I wanna do is to watch movies or dramas to keep myself occupied. I guess this is all I can do..
Besides that, I felt like getting drunk but I know I could not do it outside.... so, i decided to drink at home since I got nth better to do at home.. I'm BORED! MOODLESS! help. sigh~ Hope to have a good nite sleep. hehehe.. muaxxx~


Expect people to be better than they are; it helps them to become better. But dont be disappointed when they are not; it helps them to keep trying.. sigh~

Till then..

Blue monday

It was a normal Monday, as usual I got nth better to do until my fren called me out for a yum cha session near by. We chose Old town! is a pretty boring place but with the people there I will never get bored. How often I go out yum cha ever since I always emo at home. sigh. Moodless..
Anyway, is nice to catch up with each other. Hoping to see all of you soon again! =)

Jobless people! =X
I ordered the bread toast and I always take out the butter because is fattening! I started off with mixing up the butter on the place only then my fren join in and created a mess in the bowl! hahaha

In the night, as usual wen for handbells, It was Kristen birthday! Our music instructor's daughter
All of us bring something there for a small party for her. She grew together with the handbell choir members. So we treat her like our... sister? child? hahaha! I got no idea. =X

She is so shy until she needs to hide behind her mom. =D

Happy 8th Birthday Kristen! =D

Till then.....

Games Workshop @ Outbac camp site

The day before saturday, I was sick. =( I dont feel like going anywhere but to stay at home. However, I told myself no matter wat I gotta get myself to small group simply because it has been a long time since I last appeared there. =X and I also told myself not to FFK my friends for movie. =X
After small group, I rushed myself back home to join the my friends for movie. It was totally a bad day for me. On the way home from small group, my car got banged by a stupid motorist. ish! The bumper at the back cracked and it looks like it gonna drop. T_T there goes my allowance for the month. sigh~ I was freaking sked so i just drove of instead of getting down and look at my car condition. amen. Anyway, I headed to Tropicana city for IRON MAN 2! the movie was awesome. The conversation between them was lame.. I enjoyed myself even though I was feeling sick. My head was spinning in the cinema. =(

The next day which is Saturday! Usually it was supposed to be GB day however, because most of the officer from 1stKL gotta go for a games workshop, hence wen self declare no GB. =P
Early morning we met up at 6.45am for Dim Sum together at Taman cougnaught! Yum yum..
After that we headed to broga hills. The workshop starts at 9am, we reached at 8.15am. Hence, we decided to have a short walk up the hill... There are 2 hills that we can climb actually. 1 is the jungle tracking type and another is this.. the road type. haha!

Pretty awesome view..

is camwhore time!=D

Around 8.45 we u-turn back and head down hill because is almost time! We gotta drive back to the camp site for our workshop.
This 2 fellas in the pic was freaking tired.. They bought themselves a cup of Soya Bean! It was pretty funny, the stall there wrote "very nice" Soya bean for sale, when i drink it, it was only a normal soya bean. haha! Marketing skill. =P


The workshop began sharp at 9.00am.. The campsite was pretty awesome. Full with loads of activities. Is a good place to bring the girls/friends here for activities like flying fox, obstacle course and also kayaking! weee~






The both PIGs! Right after lunch they slept on the table.. one on my right and another on my left. They made me sleepy and I join them right after I took this pic. =D

The yummy butter chicken rice! =D

Till then

No matter

I just realized that no matter how hard I am trying to help and make things better it will end up be in a dead end.

I like how we used to be yet things are changing.
I like how we used to........................
I like how we used to.................
I like how we used to ........................
There is no point continue saying
I know I am hypocrite. I am selfish. I am no one to understand the pain you are going through.. Every single words you said just sliced through my heart. But I never blame you because I deserve that. I deserve something worst than this. I gotta be strong. But I can't.
All I can do now is to talk to the walls and hoping I will feel better and someday you will understand.
All I did now is to continue breaking your hearts and slicing your heart with my words. I am out of words and I no longer know how to express myself.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend someone is, they are going to hurt you every once in awhile and you must forgive them for that. I do not know how true is it. But yeah..
I know I can cry to feel better.. The tears may fall and they are so easy to be wipe off with anything, but how do I erase the scar/stain that I created in the heart? Tears are always the words that the heart could not express. What else can I do?
Sigh.. I know God did not promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, but he did promise to give us strength, and comfort for the tears and also light for the way! I trust him.
I am just hoping for a lasting friendship......
Can I not have things turn out to be like this? sigh~
If only I had never existed in your life..

Till then...

Blog blog blog

I need to blog more OFTEN!
Dowan ppl to complain tat my blog is Fatt Mouing.. BLEH! =P

O well, I am now thinking whether to have the habit of carrying my camera everywhere I go or not. I wanna capture good pics and things that are happening around me. So that I am able to look back at any day of my year and recall what I did, who I met and what I've learn. Probably I will get tired of taking photo every single day.. I guess I will give up one day? hahaha.. Still considering though... Me now want a good CAMERA! not DSLR but at least a better camera than my current one. =( But I am poor though.. How? =(

I am poor.. I only can afford Lego Camera. =D

Sob.. One of my birthday wish definetly is gonna be..
to own a good digital camera. Not DSLR but just a better digital camera will be good enuf. =D Currently me owing a Canon camera and Olympus. Not good enuf. =( POOOOR~ hahahaha..

Currently, I am having my sem break. I wonder how much weight will i put on after this holiday. AMEN! me wan sports. Me going for exercise but i am lazy. kekeke.. Good Luck..

Till then...

U-Turn?

Is there a U-turn in life?
Is there always a second chance for us to prove ourselves?
If there is will we ever appreciate?
I guess this is life. O well..

Finals has finally over! Is my Sem break! YAY!
should I be happy? I'll have about one month of break?
I hope to get a suitable job for myself to earn side income and also not to rot at home doing nth since I do not want to go out so often and spend all my money away! I am poor though. =( Dam sad. I wonder how i spend my money. sigh~
Overall, I did OK for my exams. Except for Management Accounting! the paper sux! sigh. I just hope I pass the paper. I know is wrong because it will definitely pull down my CGPA. However, what more can i expect. I am so lousy in account weh.. I wonder how am i doing to survive in business field. =( sigh.

Going into Year 2 by the month of July. Hoping for the right path way to my future. God bless me.

till then

End up

I dowan this to happened
End up I am being ignore again.
I guess I deserve it. Dun blame ppl Feli..
Like others always said : ask myself what I have done and what who am I to judge.

once again.. Wonder why..

Till then

Don't Understand

Extremely tired this few days.
I do not know why. I just can't understand my own feelings.
I only know you play an important role in my life. Having said that, whenever the cold war begin it will just affects my mood. I wonder what am I going to do now for the next few days/weeks or maybe months to go through this. No matter what, a fact is a fact. How people want to think of me I can't give a dam on it because I am no one to stop him/her from thinking the way they are thinking right now. The only think I can do is to explain and that's it. I can't do much. Is basically up to the person.
I realize that there are lots of people surrounding me are never truthful. Maybe I have yet to meet one that are total opposite. I can never understand. Indeed I am jealous with others that have people that care for them sincerely and also understands them. I guess I do not deserve all this because like what others always said to me.. They always ask me to think what I did. Think of what I have done. I guess all this while I am someone that are not worth of a friend at all and someone that should never exist in others life.

till then...

Hmm

How does it feels like to be care by others?
How does it feels like to be loved and protected by someone whom really cares for you?
How does it feels like to be the most important person in his/her life?
How does it feels like to be treated differently?
How does it feels like to be placed first in what ever things he/she does?

I wonder...

Five Language of Love
1) Quality Time
2) Acts of service
3) Words of affirmation
4) Gifts
5) Physical Touch

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Anyway, I finally got an offer in CSU Program.

I guess is fated for me to take up this program. So yea, I am going to sit for the paper here in Help. I am going to just stay in Malaysia for the rest of my degree. Is not my will. Is just that I gotta follow the flow. What more can I ask for? To those who understands and know how I'm feeling now. I do hope that you guys ignore me cause i know i am emo-ing again! =(
Anyway, I should be lucky to get an offer from CSU program simply because of certain reasons. I am now waiting for the offer letter only. Hope it will not gives me problem for me to settle.
Anyway, from the very beginning, I should have insisted in what I wanted. I should just be like him. Not caring about how others feel and what others think as long as is the way I wanted. However, I don't know why I can't. Even she admitted that I am soft hearted thats why is easier to talk to me and discuss with me. Is that the reason why I can't get the things I wanted in my own way? People do take advantage. hmmm..
Nah.. Dun worry.. I'm just complaining a little. I did not blame on anything. I am happy with what I have. Just letting out how I'm feelings. Is really hard to explain my feelings in words though..

Am I really sorry to those of my friends that I've hurt especially those that are close to me. If you think I am using you then I am sorry. Maybe the way i express myself and the way I talk is not good. I dun mean to do anything that hurts. I do not know how many i hurt but i do know humans are not perfect. If you think I am not worth of a friend. Then I can't do anything.
I am treating everyone with all my heart.. I am sorry. Truly I am. I appreciate each and everyone of you that appeared in my life. God is so kind to me.

Study Mode : ON

Happy Easter

HAPPY EASTER everyone! God loves You all..

Muacccccks

till then..

Random Camwhore

It begin with only 1 pics. We were dead bored sitting at the food court waiting for time to pass. So coincident my this crazy friend was having her break time and she's rotting at food court as well. Hence, we sat together and started laming.. and I took her fon and start testing her camera.. It begin with me and her taking pics.. Ended up I started to camwhore in the FOOD COURT..!!! #%$$#%^$%@# hahaha.. I can't believe it. =P 52 pics weh!!! haven include those i deleted. heehehehe .. If u wanna see more, go to my facebook profile. Lameness place to camwhore. =P

The 1st Pic we took..

Follow by this.. and so ONN.. hahaha.. U know wat i mean.. =D

I just love this pic..
Her expression was real.
I told her I love her and i wanna kiss her.. there goes her expression. lol
But then, I know she loves me.. right gillian =)

They said I look like my Boy Friend. ARGHH~ no! I'm me myself and I. =)

EPIC!!! =)

I'm dead boring now!
I wonder wen can I finish up my ACC103 assignments and then proceed to study for finals. Finals coming soon! =(
I'm gonna make myself become a nerd. heeeeee~
Once finals end, I'm so gonna look for a job. I need $$. I'm poor.
I need lots and lots of marnee! and obviously the main thing is to kill time. I dont like rotting at home even though is just one month! still I dislike rotting. =)

Till then...