Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Hmm

How does it feels like to be care by others?
How does it feels like to be loved and protected by someone whom really cares for you?
How does it feels like to be the most important person in his/her life?
How does it feels like to be treated differently?
How does it feels like to be placed first in what ever things he/she does?

I wonder...

Five Language of Love
1) Quality Time
2) Acts of service
3) Words of affirmation
4) Gifts
5) Physical Touch

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Anyway, I finally got an offer in CSU Program.



I guess is fated for me to take up this program. So yea, I am going to sit for the paper here in Help. I am going to just stay in Malaysia for the rest of my degree. Is not my will. Is just that I gotta follow the flow. What more can I ask for? To those who understands and know how I'm feeling now. I do hope that you guys ignore me cause i know i am emo-ing again! =(
Anyway, I should be lucky to get an offer from CSU program simply because of certain reasons. I am now waiting for the offer letter only. Hope it will not gives me problem for me to settle.
Anyway, from the very beginning, I should have insisted in what I wanted. I should just be like him. Not caring about how others feel and what others think as long as is the way I wanted. However, I don't know why I can't. Even she admitted that I am soft hearted thats why is easier to talk to me and discuss with me. Is that the reason why I can't get the things I wanted in my own way? People do take advantage. hmmm..
Nah.. Dun worry.. I'm just complaining a little. I did not blame on anything. I am happy with what I have. Just letting out how I'm feelings. Is really hard to explain my feelings in words though..

Am I really sorry to those of my friends that I've hurt especially those that are close to me. If you think I am using you then I am sorry. Maybe the way i express myself and the way I talk is not good. I dun mean to do anything that hurts. I do not know how many i hurt but i do know humans are not perfect. If you think I am not worth of a friend. Then I can't do anything.
I am treating everyone with all my heart.. I am sorry. Truly I am. I appreciate each and everyone of you that appeared in my life. God is so kind to me.


Study Mode : ON

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