Part of growing up

I guess is part of growing up in life. The pain the difficulties the joy the sorrows... When we fall down we gotta learn how to stand up and walk again. Never be afraid of falling because the pain make me realized and helped me to grow up in life.

For the past few weeks I found out that all I need was someone who can sit down, someone who can really listen to me and keep it within themselves, someone who can eat and talk at the same time. I realize how much I have been avoiding knowing that deep inside my heart I already got the answer. I have been leaving in a denial mode for the past few months! I have already let go! Is just the subconscious side of my mind telling me that I am still not over yet! I really cannot recall the number of times I persuaded myself that life still goes on no matter what. YET I fail to do so. For the past few months I've lost myself. I lost all my sense of belonging, the certainty towards this pain. My faith, trust and hope is gone! It was badly disturbed be it emotionally or physically and what's left within me was just wound. I guess is really part of life. When you fall down you gotta get back up and walk again in order to go through the right path way. There are much more to go through and waiting for me to fight through. I sat at home going through pictures after pictures which could actually made me upset and drain me down into my memory lane, but I realize that all I need was just time to talk to God and surrendering it all to Him and He will lead the way and show me the right path way.

Now, I'm done with it! Deep inside me I'm done wit it! Is over! I'm over it! I click open the folder and I brave enough to view one by one and look through it. Is all gone! and I'm happy about it! Wat is left is just memories. Which will remain forever..

Snowflakes is part of my addiction. I would say is the past of me.

but for now.. I'm NO LONGER addicted to it anymore! I found the reason to it and realize that it was me all along that being so naive. I'm awake now and will continue on my journey!

Thanks to the 40 days of fasting! I gave my time to God and pounder upon it. I guess in many ways I used to leave in denial mode. EYH! wait! I'm not emo, is just the mixture of this weird feelings I have. Well you know mood swing which I always have. I'm blessed indeed that through out these difficult months I have friends who have spend their precious time and done wonderful things to brighten up my days and to turning my frowny face to a smily face.

I'M A CHEERFUL AGAIN! I'M ME AGAIN!

The past...

The Present..

I shall Love it! =)

I've gone through another stage of life..

I have back my faith, trust and hope again and once again live my life to the fullest!

BIG thank you to GOD, Family, babes and friends! =)

Before 2010 ends..

Hello Blogger..

Its already 31st December 2010. Time really flies, 2010 is coming to an end. For the past whole year I've learn a lot. Towards the end of the year is the most difficult months to me, but I do gain a lot. I'm hoping that next year will be a better year for me.
I sat down and think of the things I did in 2010. What have I achieved? I'm blessed that I have been walking with God throughout the whole year. I want to walk closer to Him.

This year memories there are sweet, bitter, and sour.. I wish that my memory will only store up those that are sweet, however, I know that the bitter and sour will still remain there. Memories hold and remain forever. It takes time to let go and forget the past and move on. I wish that time could just stop there and allow me to look back at what I did to reflect on myself. I have been very naive in my life. Immature in the things I do. Therefore, to all my friends out there especially my sistas! (you know who you are).. I would like to apologies for the wrong things I did throughout the year. I do hope to have a better memories with all of you. Past friends, present friends, future friends and I do hope it will be my forever friends. All of you created footprint in my life.. Loving you guys and girls~ especially my sistas and bro! =)


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Letting go the person you love sincerely is never easy. However, I know I gotta move on and carry on with life. Time will not stop there for me to cry over it and time will not tick backwards just for me to undo my mistakes. I know I will have to move on my life with this regret in me. Going to bed every night thinking why did I do that in the very first place. If only things would be different. Will I be able to forget you? I do not know how long more can I take up this pain. The pain that have been hunting me ever since that day itself. I will never forget the days we had the laughter and joy we shared and most importantly I will never forget the love you gave me and the love I received. I will always remember the best new year present ever you gave me that signifies our love and to begin my 2010. Even though I would have to end 2010 with this regret, I will still treasure the moments we had in the beginning. I know it will no longer be the same anymore., All I can do now is to surrender my pain to God and pray to God to relieve me from the thoughts that lead to depression. His timing is always perfect. No matter what, I do hope that you will be happy with the life you chose. Keeping you in my prayer list is all I can do now. Thank you for leaving your footprint in my life and allowing me to share the love you had. Your heart my heart our love...Will never forget this.. I do miss the moment we had together... Thank you for coloring up my life.

"Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know" - Jeremiah 33 : 3



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"God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect" - Hebrews 11 : 40


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Before the year ends.. I would like to say..
I love you Mom and Dad..
I love you my friends!
I love you my brothers and sisters in Christ!
I love you all who have been here for me..
Thank you for everything..
God Is GOOD! =D

I LOVE YOU GOD. - Thank you for being with me and loving me unconditionally. Muaxx~

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

PS : SORRY FOR THE EMO POST. >.<

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Many things have been changing.

My life, my everything. Even people surrounding me.
Life seems to be really interesting and also really helpless as the days passes by.
No matter what, I tried to learnt to take each and every path that I went through as a lesson to myself and I will learn to grow from there. Honestly, I'm pretty curious to see how things would turn out to be now as time flies from year to year. When I think about everything that went wrong, I remember how amazing life truly is and the fact that I like being imperfect =) Nobody is perfect right? =D. and When I think about everything that went right, I remember how amazing God is that with him everything is possible.

I'm actually trying to picture out what the future gonna be like for me.
Looking at myself now I do see myself clear on what I want and what I will be like, and of cos I'm hoping what I've picture out will definitely turn out to be reality instead of being in the fantasy land. I'm pretty curious how people around me will turn out to be like. I hope I could still keep in touch with them and stay on to be my besties and my bitches for life. =D
Well, whatever it is...Only time can tell me =) like what I always say, lets just hope for the best.


As for the year 2010 is ahead of us now, looking back in 2009, I wanna thank God for every great thing he has done to me and as for the things that went wrong, I always tell myself that I learnt from mistakes and I shall grow from there.
As for all my babes and friends.
I would like to say thank you to all of them for being in my life. All of them ( people I know for less than a month, a year and more than that as well) they all play an important role in my life and also colour up my life. All the tears and laughter we go through..Without their presence, I wouldn't be as cheerful as I am. They are the people I share my sorrows and happiness with. They are always there for me and give me the support I needed everytime I'm in troubles. The love I have for them could not be expressed here. I love You all so so much. xoxo.. I heart u guys...

Action may not always bring happiness, but there is no happiness without action.

Apart from that, I would like to say that, I never expect I would found someone that could literally capture my heart and be close to my heart. I never thought I would fall in love again. Is all just so random.Hell yeah! in the year 2009, Felicia Choong did not stay single as I always tell my fellow friends that I would actually stay single because being in love sux. But i did not kept to wat i said and on that year itself, I found someone that I could actually count on and I could share my tears and joy as well. The shoulder that I could lean on. Thank you for all your love that accepted everything about me darling. My temper my attitude my behavior my everything.

HAPPY 2010 once again.....

o my.. 2012 is near.. HAHAHA.. xD

till then...

with love,
Felicia Choong

♥ Langkawi Trip ♥

8th - 10th December 2009

This would be the second Langkawi Trip in year 2009.
It wasn't bored at all simply because I went wit the people I like and LOVE! ♥♥ =D

Day 1

The night before, my eyes was widely opened. I felt a sleep around 3.15am and woke up at 3.45am to get ready. I'm have to be in KL sentral by 5.00am so left the house at 4.15 went for light breakfast with my dad. Reached KL sentral sharp 5.00am. I'm always on time okay. BE PUNCTUAL =D
Off we headed to LCCT by air asia bus. I personally hate the environment there. Simply because Yellow Vs Red.. ARGHHH... Last time i used to always pass by there to get home. BUT now, thank God I can drive. =D

Someone PIGGING all the way to LCCT...















Reached LCCT checked in and waited for time to pass there. Hence, we all camwhore! as usual.

While waiting to check in...



















Peace!















TRIED to camwhore with Pro camera.. =X
















I got no idea what they are pointing at..
















Our first Group Pic!

















Boarding the plane...

















The flight take off at 8.05am and reach Langkawi airport at 9.00+am..

















Langkawi Aiport!!


















Once we arrive, we got ourselves the cars we booked and off we headed to the Oriental Village to see the nice view and bridge there. It was really tiring and exhausting but it was worth! =D

















We headed to the Cable Car..

















While waiting in the LONG lineeeeeeeeee



















Hui Jing is THINKING hard! Look more like posing. XD
















Still waiting...

















Is our TURN!!! yay!

















Look closely..



















Time to pose..



































On the way up..

















AHHH.. Finally we reach! Brian enjoying the scenery..


















The bridge..








































Group Pic!





































O.O I got freak out.. So daring weh he... AMEN!


















Our Lunch...






































Shop for "nite life" stuff...























We bought.. mineral waters, 2 bottle whisky, 1 carton carlsberg, coke and tibits.. The following day we bought another bottle of vodka.











































In the Evening, we headed to the beach and enjoy ourselves there.
It was my second time experiencing banana boat. My first time was long time ago. Nth special just enjoy the water and sand there. Did not bring my camera along, so not many pics were taken. =( I want the sunset pics! BUT BUT... nvm arghhh...

At the beach...






































Our Dinner.. Yum Yum...~




























































The other table enjoying themselves too.. =D




















After dinner, we took a walk around that place.
After that, we had fun with all the drinks we bought from town! Many games were played




















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Day 2

Most of them woke up kinda early maybe because I ALSO dunno why. XD
But many fall a sleep back around 10.00am...
I woke up kinda late at 10.00am i slept back till 11.00am and we need to check out by 12.00pm.. =.= So wake everyone up and rush for packing and off we headed to the town.

Before we check out, I manage to take a pic of this. =D Me like weh.. =(















One last Pic wit Him before leaving the beach side. =)




















Group Pic!


















Brunch time!


































While waiting for check In...



















In da lift...




















I think he's enjoying the bed in the condo. =P




















After we check in, we headed to langkawi Parade and also to langkawi fair to have some fun and Ice cream! =D

Poser!!! =D




















I scream, U scream, Ice scream! hahaha




















Dataran Lang...








































2 sweet Couple.. ♥♥♥♥
























Hui Jing and ekay camwhoring... I like it weh..




















The girls~





















The guys~...


















They are not suppose to go up there.. =X End up the guard came and scold all of us! hahahaha!















































I dunno what they trying to do actually...
























Imitating Titanic.. HAHAHA
























Guess ur hands? hahaha matt alone can block everyone. XD

























Group Pic!!



















Spelling L.A.N.G.K.A.W.I.!!!!


















The girls JUMPPPPPPP~



















Now the guys turn.. They FAIL!!! hahahahah!!


















Love him!























Dinner time!
They enjoying themselves at the other table.. =D




















Lobster!! Yum Yum.. But of course is not as nice as the one i ate wen i came with my family.. The nice seafood shop closed. =( BUT i like the Decoration weh..




















me and him enjoying the lobster. muahahaha..




















LALA~


















Tada! this table no one know how to eat the lobster head.. so I ate it! YUM YUM~

















after dinner, we headed home for some fun!

the 2 birthday boy and gal.
























is time for FUN! brian first...
























Tada! the outcome of the cake! =D thanks to Wyman. He used both of his hand and push brian's head.. =X





















the birthday gal got freak out! hahahaha!

























But still she will have to pull the candle out from the cake wit the mouth. XD

























Since she is my twin sis, so nth happen. =D
this one is for us to eat.! yum tum~





















Brian, u're so dead.. KC is so gonna kill u. XD





















Their presents...

























Hui jing With chivas..
























Part of the game...
The boys complain it was not fair because is nothing big deal to the gals. XD
Nth is fair guys. LOL...
Imagine, there is onlt nail polish but no nail polish remover. HAHAHA!





















First Victim! hahahaha





















Second victim... XD

























the game ended at around 5.00am.. many get knock out already.,.
Only 5 ppl left.. out of 15 ppl. hahaha =D

















Brian (high already) , Ui Kee ( still conscious) , Kar Hou (High already), Feli (The normal one, I clear up the whole place myself okay! =D ), Wyman ( Face red, but still can take care of the rest) =D
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Day 3
All good things will come to an end. Time really flies. So sad we only got 3 days to hang out together.. O well, there is always next time..
So all of us woke up pack our stuff and check out!...

Waiting for time to pass...
as usual, cho dai di...





















The couples through out the trip...



















Final Group pic without 3 people inside. =(



















Hui Jing taking pic of me taking her. XD




















Ekay, the video gal through out the trip...




















The guys~ more like the gays. XD



















The girls.. =D




















Because of yesterday!




















Our Bags




















and my BLUR FACE! XD
























Last but not least, I enjoy myself is because he is there with me. =D ♥♥♥
This was my first trip with him. =D















till then.....