Don't Understand

Extremely tired this few days.
I do not know why. I just can't understand my own feelings.
I only know you play an important role in my life. Having said that, whenever the cold war begin it will just affects my mood. I wonder what am I going to do now for the next few days/weeks or maybe months to go through this. No matter what, a fact is a fact. How people want to think of me I can't give a dam on it because I am no one to stop him/her from thinking the way they are thinking right now. The only think I can do is to explain and that's it. I can't do much. Is basically up to the person.
I realize that there are lots of people surrounding me are never truthful. Maybe I have yet to meet one that are total opposite. I can never understand. Indeed I am jealous with others that have people that care for them sincerely and also understands them. I guess I do not deserve all this because like what others always said to me.. They always ask me to think what I did. Think of what I have done. I guess all this while I am someone that are not worth of a friend at all and someone that should never exist in others life.

till then...