No matter

I just realized that no matter how hard I am trying to help and make things better it will end up be in a dead end.

I like how we used to be yet things are changing.
I like how we used to........................
I like how we used to.................
I like how we used to ........................
There is no point continue saying
I know I am hypocrite. I am selfish. I am no one to understand the pain you are going through.. Every single words you said just sliced through my heart. But I never blame you because I deserve that. I deserve something worst than this. I gotta be strong. But I can't.
All I can do now is to talk to the walls and hoping I will feel better and someday you will understand.
All I did now is to continue breaking your hearts and slicing your heart with my words. I am out of words and I no longer know how to express myself.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend someone is, they are going to hurt you every once in awhile and you must forgive them for that. I do not know how true is it. But yeah..
I know I can cry to feel better.. The tears may fall and they are so easy to be wipe off with anything, but how do I erase the scar/stain that I created in the heart? Tears are always the words that the heart could not express. What else can I do?
Sigh.. I know God did not promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, but he did promise to give us strength, and comfort for the tears and also light for the way! I trust him.
I am just hoping for a lasting friendship......
Can I not have things turn out to be like this? sigh~
If only I had never existed in your life..

Till then...