Understanding Myself

hmmmmmm~
I wish to serve like i used to. Wonder y there's always something there to stop me.. STOPING ME.. yyyyyyy~
Maybe is juz myself. NOO.. it is MYSELF. I'm trying very hard to understand myself again and again. BUT somehow i always fail.
It has been few months I wish I''m back to the right pathway. Serving him like i always used to do so.
Every saturday used to be a day i always look forward for. Somehow recently, wen it comes to saturday, i'm afraid. Now is even worst. I'm also afraid wen Its a SUNDAY. cause sunday used to be a day where i always go to church for service and stuff and now i'm not doing it. MY GOODNESS.. all tis feeling is all gone. wats the point of me leaving? I dowan to be away from GOD. i really wan back the life i used to have.
I seriously need someone to tell me wat to do. This dam thing has been bothering me. I seriously wish Jasmine is here. If she's here, she will seriously scold me to wake me up from my lala land and help me to get back to where i truely belong. Jasmine... I MISS YOU. I wish u were here. =(
How and wat am i suppose to do??
I know some might think tat is all up to me and is my decision. But somehow the "feeling" la.. I guess no one will understand. Even my closest friends. sigh~
I'm being really naive here. i Know. i juz couldn't help it.