Wednesday, November 4, 2009

am i the authur?

Nothing else can be done.
As i have hurt many of them. Is all about me all the while.
Regrets are idle, yet history is one long regret in my life.
I have never felt this lost in my life before.
I always wonder what will be next in my life? will i continue to regret?
I'm just sitting here holding a pen in my hand. Deciding what to write on the page of my life that can leads to no regrets. However, I guess it is true that nothing is perfect in life.
I know, and i guess all of us know that true love burns the brightest in our life, BUT we gotta know that brightest flames leave the deepest scars. Who am i to determine what is love?
I have really learned that whose who speak about one's miseries usually hurt, those who keep their mouth shut hurts more. They literally gotta swallow everything? Nobody knows their pain. Not even me i guess..
I guess nobody in life can ever go back and start a new beginning; however we can make a better ending in life?
How i really wish my life stories can be written with a pencil. Reason why?
Simple! we got eraser to correct the mistakes we done in life and the cost of the mistakes is low and it does not leave scars behind.
If only i could turn back time. which is something impossible and ridiculous to think about yet many of us do wish for that? silly rite?
God is so amazing, Small brain which literally can store so much of stuff which we called it memories. Memory is a way of holding on to things we cherish most and the things we are the the things we never want to lose in life. Like i always used to say "Memories hold and remains forever".
I guess besides regret, we can have good memories in life to cherish.
I hav e disappoint u. I know. Deep in me I will not be able to forgive myself yet i know You'll still be here for me and support me and go through it wit me together.


THE DOOR WE OPEN AND CLOSE EACH DAY DECIDE THE LIVES WE LIVE




END OF THE DAY IS STILL ME. I THAT GOTTA FACE MY OWN LIFE AND CHOOSE MY OWN PATH. Of course wit God's Help...

"Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see life with a clearer view again"

Nothing else i can do.. All i can do is to pray and wish for a better tmr in life.
I hope you could forgive me.. I have done wrong.
I should do what I wan, be honest to myself and to YOU! and then it would do good for all of us.. thats all i can say.. sigh....

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