Generally, it means Fear of PUBLIC speaking.
Basically, many of us fear of being on stage, we call it the "stage fright". Speaking in front of the people that we don't know. One of my coursemate gave a short oral on tat. Many of us got attracted with his topic, is pretty interesting.
Today, i learnt that knowing what u fear of isn't enough. Knowing the way to overcome it and improve is the way to keep life moving on.
For me, being a young leader in Girl's Brigade and also in skol activities didn't really help me to overcome my fears that i have. Although i wen through lots of leadership training camps, which i used to have fun there I realise that the only person that can help me change is myself with God's help - the effort that i plan to put in. I cannot be staying forever in my comfort zone. I have to start learning not to hide from mistakes. I've got to learn how to face the fact. For the past few years, went there's a problem, all i did was juz avoid finding solutions, avoid being blame and forgetting bout it. I've never thought neither to learn the mistakes i made nor i dare to face the mistakes i made in the previous years. That's really bad.
Time is like a river. You cannot touch the same water twice, because the flow that has passed will never pass again. So why must i continue hiding and wasting my precious time? Is time for me to come out from the comfort zone and stand on my own ground. can I?
I cannot promise, but i'll try.
Lately, my mood swings literally at a very much different pace. At one moment i can be superb happy. Next moment can be really depressed. I ain't know y. I juz got carried away at times and my heart sank and got hurt itself. Wonder why does this weird feelings come and go. Does it have to be me? sigh~.. I'm controlling myself really hard. Self control. O god, pls grant me more patient..
Got pick to for leadership training camp in college for this coming week. My feelings? excited?
Basically, I'm kinda bored with this kind of camp. Since is my 1st college camp, I'll enjoy it as fun as possible and get to know more humans from there. Glad that wern di is with me in this camp. Hope June, may, rachel and yee wern get to come along too. There're more guys then gals going. HAHAHA.. I sound so wrong. XD
till then..
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