5 days...

o.O
5 days of holiday.
what am i going to do?
study? eat? sleep? well... i'm BORED. seriously sick of life. hmmm.. wat sort of activity can i do??
Getting bored of college life. Need something to make my college life more colourful. Maybe join something? talk only la.. haha..
Anyway, tons of assignments waiting for me to do. Books stacking up ready for me open and study! My goodness. sigh~. life is so strange. really strange. Weird and lame feelings always come and go. O well, i guess we call that as "Random" feeling? maybe. haha..
k k..
Finally, i msg wit my skol fren whole day today. MISS HER alot man.
What i miss? tuition center? skol? KFC? haha.. ya ya.. tats the places that i missed badly.
I remember, my gang used to conquer the whole Pudu KFC. We make hell lots of noise there. Martin used to be my second home because i used to stay in there till 9 or 10 in the nite with my skol UNIFORM! can u imagine? it's all because of S.P.M lame. haha... now? college is my second home. Y? simply because most of the time my class ends at 6.30.. my goodness.. so dam late. and i've got to take the lame public transport. Ya i noe what u're thinking. Wats the used of my license? HELPLESS wan la i tell u. One simple reason. Dad dun allow to drive yet. L.A.M.E
O well, he's my dad rite. can't say anything.
But i'm blessed that now one of my fren sometimes can pick me up from my home. Thank god. haha.. but coming back is all by myself. SAD case.
Talking about sad. I seriously remember wat S.A.D means. thanks to a guy. He told me tis during LAN. lol..

Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for TOMORROW.
never give up in life!
till then.....

Holiday~

Selamat hari raya! haha.. raya holiday coming. 5 days. okay, my college is a little lame. Monday and Tuesday got class Wed onwards no class. Some other college tmr also no college ady. sob..
This 5 days of holiday i must really make full use of it. Study study and study. may be assignment too.. Mid term is coming. Scary! haha
econs quiz result's back!! OMG. haha.. actually not bad la. i manage to pass at least! XD well, i did not pay attention in class plus i'm dumb. so like that lor.. above average i can say that. cause is more than half. XD

Anyway, today LAN again! wat we did? we kinda have like small party going on. y? simply because we wen to giant bought some snacks. all JUNK in my stomach now.. ARGGGG...
and... and.. I sat beside a lame guy called JANSON. he's dam lame but he's a nice guy. XD

Lecturer for moral studies. kinda pity her. But!!! can't help it!

Lame guy...

Try guess who are we talking about. XD smile remains.....

Faith

Challenges and obstacles are a part of life, but how one deals with it is what separates an extraordinary person from the rest. A clear-cut example of such determination, courage and inspiration is 24-year old Nick Vujicic. He's verythankful wit wat he has now.

Critical thinking

your smile remains

WISHFUL THINKING AGAIN!!!! haha..

Here i am

it has been days i've not update my blog.

Presentation... quiz!!! assignments. all tis is killing me.
More to come... i'm so dead.
CTS quiz is next.
midterm is around the corner. and i still know nuts about econs and business. i'm so so so dead.haha..
till then.....

Miss you......

Saman??

Slept for only 3 hours.. i need more sleep.. ZZZZzzzzzzzz .

LAN classes are BORING.. Attented a few classes, and honestly none of it i pay full attention. All I did was talking, eating, sms-ing, and cracking lame jokes.

Today, after LAN i drove to a place near KLCC .. guess wat. I kena SAMAN. wtf. pity me wei..

Dumb me. I go parked my stupid car at the yellow line. I'm so dead. haha.. my first ever saman. sigh~didn't manage to take a picture of the saman. Dunno where my mom put it. Can't look for it. Dad screw me for tis. sob..

anyway,tis few days i have weird dreams. Dreamt bout.. hmm. ain't know how to explain. I wish it could be real but somehow i know it will not happen. Anyhow, i got carried away during LAN today for stupid reason. Presenters talking about choice we made in life and my tears started flowing out from my eyes. damn it! not because of regret or anything. It juz so random. Starting to not understanding myself. haha..

till then...

We know what we are, but know not what we may become

0%

I'm feeling really stupid right now. wtf did i juz say that?sigh~.. y do i always fail fail fail and FAIL.. haha.. 0% achieve!! What a nice wishful thinking i got here. sigh~..
will it help me??? No. it wouldn't. Is so obvious. Dumb me. I'm so stupid right now.It just bites knowing how emotionally weak I am not just physically but mentally. I change when people want me to. I cry in a spilt second when hurt. I hide in a corner when people triumph with joy. I never had the courage to stand on my ground. I never had a chance of letting what Me Myself and I wanted to do - act as i like. No! I don't have the courage yet i gotta pretend.
I'm really praying, that this path that i have chosen to take with my own will and not what other people have told me to do so, will lead me to where i truly belong.Arggggg!.. i seriously have to stop my stroll down memory lane, its downright depressing, just thinking about the ups and downs i gone through. It makes me regret about alot of things. i regret of the times i didn't try my best when i knew i could. i regret of the moments that should have came true if i was a better person.What's my biggest regret? Good question to even ask myself. think hard feli and DIE hard! all the best in life.
gotta start working hard in sem 2. hope to stay alive after sem 2.
till then...

REASONsssss

Is Because I'm random.
Is Because I feel like it.
Is Because I'm suppose to go and study now.
Is Because i don't want to go to study now..
Is Because I'm in love with myself and also "you".
Is Because I want to show you who am i.
Is Because I'm really serious this time.
Is Because I don't want to blog bout my feelings.
Is Because I'm really lazy.
Is Because I'm eating mcd almost everyday.
Is Because I saw u eating.
Is Because I asked for it and i deserve it?
Is Because I don't even noe what you think
Is Because I'm stupid, I'm just new to this.
Is Because I'm full of excuses.
Is Because I dunno you that well
Is Because I don't have reasons y i have the feeling.
Is Because I'm dueling in the past again.
Is Because I'm missing you right now.
Is Because I'm bored.
Is Because I'm lifeless.
Is Because i like to say because.
Is Because you actually bothered to read all my becauseSSS
Is Because here it is... XD
and finally is because i'm laming

camp camp camp camp camp~!!

Back from HMC leadership training camp; 3 days and 2 nights all the way to Trolak, Perak. The camp was fun. It's nice to meet new friends and have got closer to them and not forgetting lecturers too. The activities were normal and most of the time it is the cooperation between teammates that makes a champion.
We had only a few activities on our first day, most of it were ice breaking games and one of it was the SOLO drop. They actually brought us to the jungle and drop us one by one. Scary wei! but is funny somehow. There's story behind. hahaha...
We had 4 activities on the second day. Early in the morning we had 2km run. We don’t actually run alone. We had to run in our group. So, basically if one of the members are down or can’t run we had to figure a way out so that we can reach the finishing line. It took some of our life away. Next the high ropes and the low ropes. The high ropes are pretty nice and the low ropes are the obstacle course. In low ropes, I dunno how I got to be the last person to finish the task. All eyes are on me when is my turn so is really pressure. haha... Anyhow, kinda wasted cause there isn’t any 12ft wall for us to climb up to like I used to have it in my church camp. Next was a game where we work in a team to find our check points. It’s pretty easy, but somehow or rather there are still groups that did not manage to go for the last checkpoint. My group was the 1st group to reach the final checkpoint and ms.debbie told us we were really fast. Well, b4 the game start we tried our very best to get familiarize ourselves with the environment there; knowing where’s the trees and all. XD We actually bang ourselves into a tree one time b4 we reach our 3rd check point. Then we had bbq for dinner! But it makes no different because we had no chance to bbq ourselves. NO FUN! Haha juz kidding. We had own activities; night walk all by ourselves, gamble, heart attack and of course GOSSIPs. It’s nice to play truth or dare with ppl u’re not that close with. That’s all about the camp. Had so much of fun and I miss it so much not only the camp but also the ppl!! Hope there’s still chance for me to see the person I wan and also my fellow frenz. =)
Pics time!

He's a funny guy. Like him alot!

Poser! haha

Nice Scenery?

Patrick Glenn.

Kee siao ppl

Blur taiwaness guy

My room!!!! Where all my frens gather and crap!

YUMMY!!!!

One of the Foods we bought from giant!!

He's prank calling ppl. by saying ROOM SERVICE

Group! Sapultura! YAY!

That nite i got myself into crazy mood. making lame jokes and even dance on bed. haha

Ms. Debbie! Psychology Lecturer

Owhhh how sweet..

Ann Joe and the Gurls... He always look blur.

Our random pick Headmaster in the camp. VERY VERY responsible.

Wiiky watching MR. BEAN?? OMG!! haha.. seriously, he turn on the tv juz to watch that

Cards cards..

Last but not least.. i swear i will never buy tis specs. I look stupid wearing keng fai's specs

There's more pics like me dressing in dress with a TABLE CLOTH!! gosh! i can't believei did that. and many more. but not with me. gotta find it. haha.. till then

miss you! hmm...i know is stupid. haha

Reflection

Memories are always sweet. When we reflect back of what has already happened in the past -good or bad, we tend to laugh at what we have done; and cry at what we have regret. The joy and sorrows we been through. All is left is juz memories. At times when i couldn't sleep, lying on the bed I tend to start scrolling down to memory lane. Things I have done that makes me happy and sad. I feel greatful on what God has given me - family and friends. I never thought of asking for more. Love from family and friends are important. We tend to forget those who love us and care for us. Arggg.. i can't believe i'm saying tis. anyway, Wonderful day I had had yesterday. Gonna crash into her house again! XD
Our memories are the only paradise from which we can never be expelled

till then..

Wonderful day

Today wasn't really my day. But I'm happy and satisfy.

During CTS, we were ask to draw a car and design it our own. well, this is how our car look like..

Nice????? XD wern di's drawing. KAKAKAKA

It took us less than an hour to decide to overnight in May's house. So here i am blogging in her house with the rest of my college mates.

Where we wen? Basically, our reason here is to go pasar malam. I love sri petaling pasar malam. Lots of things to see.c

In the afternoon before class... PIZZA... calories!!! Gosh..

FAT MAN steamboat. Gonna be fat soon. ahahaha..

till then...

Colourful...

I always thought that my life was full wit dullness. I used to wonder literally where's the all the colours?? Until today, again i thought of that question. It was during my journey back from college around 7 plus in the evening. Sitting inside the monorail nth better to do but to look out the window (i dunno what we call that as). Looking at the beautiful sky that God's has created. At that moment, i saw rainbow. RAINBOW. Is true! I couldn't believe it. Is God trying to tell me that my life does not only has one colour but is fill wit many colours and he's always there to cheer me up. O well, for me i think that's part of the msg. I hardly sees rainbow. The last time was during my journey to Port Dickson I think. Years back. Never thought I could see it again. How often rainbow appear especially with the weather now!.
Thank God for everything he has done to my family, friends, people in the world and last but not least ME!

Right Choice?

Today, mua high skol is having a Alumni Gathering. I choose not to go. Y? cause i wanna go midvalley. haha.. Did i actually made the right choice? will i miss the fun. The answer is YES. I will definitely miss the fun tat they're gonna have there. Anyway, Since I made up my mind, Better not think bout it. XD

Stupid HMC server.

I'm really running out of patient.ZZZZzzzzz.. Stil waiting.. crap.

I regret.. regret..and regret letting u noe. I wanna help u to get into a group, i dunno whose group. I suggested mine without thinking about consequences. . And now there's NO! return. How the hack am i gonna solve tis?????? bla bla bla..Zzzzz. i'm so dead.

IS all my fault. I had a sudden feeling that things will get worst. ZZZzz

BBQ?

hmmmm..ooooo yar..

I forget when was my last time enjoying my worship and enjoy playing games that was organize by others. Finally i made a move to go for the Chirtian Fellowship Welcome Party held in Help. Kinda enjoying. Too bad i gotta leave early. Hope to join u guys back soon. XD met few of skol mates there. one human dislike. yew.. but nvm. god teach us to forgive and forget. haha..

One Utama!!! Haven been there for quite some time. BBQ plaza! kinda nice place to eat. Haven been there b4. Few of us go in there bluring dunno wat to do.Today 1st time. So.... tis was our breakfast + lunch = ?? Brunch.

Then we proceed to starbucks for our coffee. Well, we can call tat as dinner. Wonder why always our eating time gets mix up.

Ate around 3.00+

Love it especially the beefs.

till then

M.O.O.D

Glossophobia.

Generally, it means Fear of PUBLIC speaking.

Basically, many of us fear of being on stage, we call it the "stage fright". Speaking in front of the people that we don't know. One of my coursemate gave a short oral on tat. Many of us got attracted with his topic, is pretty interesting.

Today, i learnt that knowing what u fear of isn't enough. Knowing the way to overcome it and improve is the way to keep life moving on.

For me, being a young leader in Girl's Brigade and also in skol activities didn't really help me to overcome my fears that i have. Although i wen through lots of leadership training camps, which i used to have fun there I realise that the only person that can help me change is myself with God's help - the effort that i plan to put in. I cannot be staying forever in my comfort zone. I have to start learning not to hide from mistakes. I've got to learn how to face the fact. For the past few years, went there's a problem, all i did was juz avoid finding solutions, avoid being blame and forgetting bout it. I've never thought neither to learn the mistakes i made nor i dare to face the mistakes i made in the previous years. That's really bad.

Time is like a river. You cannot touch the same water twice, because the flow that has passed will never pass again. So why must i continue hiding and wasting my precious time? Is time for me to come out from the comfort zone and stand on my own ground. can I?

I cannot promise, but i'll try.

Lately, my mood swings literally at a very much different pace. At one moment i can be superb happy. Next moment can be really depressed. I ain't know y. I juz got carried away at times and my heart sank and got hurt itself. Wonder why does this weird feelings come and go. Does it have to be me? sigh~.. I'm controlling myself really hard. Self control. O god, pls grant me more patient..

Got pick to for leadership training camp in college for this coming week. My feelings? excited?

Basically, I'm kinda bored with this kind of camp. Since is my 1st college camp, I'll enjoy it as fun as possible and get to know more humans from there. Glad that wern di is with me in this camp. Hope June, may, rachel and yee wern get to come along too. There're more guys then gals going. HAHAHA.. I sound so wrong. XD

till then..