Plain life

Reading other blogs and i had a sudden feeling that my life is literally empty just like an empty coin box, while the others are filled with pennies and dimes. Why is tis so?
Apparently, i ain't understand y my life is in a mess. Nothing goes my way.
Some told me not waste my time on worrying bout my problems. So far, I'm not. I'm juz curious about my life in future. Curiosity is wat i have now.

I'm trying to achieve better understanding and approach the truth. Y so? haha.. well, I'm kinda lame cause my facial expression is not relevant with wat i'm saying.
O well, here's an example conversation in pizza hut after class with 9 of us there.

ME:- June, I'm angry lar.. (telling her with my smiling face)
JUNE:- What? u're angry? Y?
JANSEN:- u don't look like u're angry. U're expression is not relevant wit wat u're saying.
ME:- Yer..i'm serious. i'm really angry... haiz... i saw my fren and bla bla bla (still smiling)
WERNDI:- What happen to her????
JUNE:- She said she's angry.. but i agree with janson, u don't look like u're angry. are u kidding?
ME:- I'm serious la..(still smiling)
JANSEN:- i'm speechless....
ME:- Don't think that i'm being naive la.. serious wan la.. (smiling)
JUNE:- SWT! i'm ignoring u..
ME:- haiz.. angry.. angry angry..
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I don't know what am i think. I can't tell Wat's the reason. I'm juz happy wen i get to see u around me. I hope nth goes further then this. I wanna stay juz where we are. I'm happy enough. I hope u understand. *fullstop*
I ain't wanna have anymore wishful thinking just to please myself. O well, is isn't that hard after all.

I do not wan to have the hatred feeling towards u. But i just can't help it. I can't forget that incident that had happened. Thats the fact. U're not even doing anything to help me. All u did is juz smiling at me and laugh. I gotta pretend to laugh as well. Is that the way? U just couldn't be bother. So many mistakes u did and i can juz forgive u like tis. u take me for granted. Is really sad and hurt. U're hurting me directly. sigh~.. when are u going to realise. I think by the time u realise, my trust towards u will be gone. sooner or later......

HAHA! Fishie, Batrachophobia is Wat u're having now! u're fear of FROGS.. gosh! hahahahaa

Basically, we move from pizza hut to secret recipe. Super full at tat moment. can't eat anymore.

Till then....