Best Of Luck

GOOD LUCK TO MY BROTHER
THOMAS CHOONG
and
all other SPM-ERS 2009!!!
Best of luck.. May GOD bless u..
Lots of luv
Felicia Choong

I.G.N.O.R.E

Genuine?
AM I NOT ME? who am i? sigh~
WHAT HAPPENed?
I never knew it came with a price, Price that i could not afford to pay? or rather, I just didn't see it coming..
Well, I guess things are going to remain like this?

I gave all my best or maybe I'm not good enuf..
I should have seen it coming.... Well, i guess is over now?
The tears.. the pain is all within us... What more can i say...

hmmm~

I wanna know
who ever told you I was letting go
the only joy that I have ever known
girl, they're lying

just look around
and all of the people that we used to know
have just given up, they wanna let it go
but we're still trying

so you should know this love we share was never made to die
I'm glad we're on this one way street just you and I just you and I

I'm never gonna say goodbye
cuz I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
and I swear it all over again and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
cuz I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
and I swear it all over again
all over again

some people say
that everything has got its place in time
even the day must give way to the night
but I'm not buying
cuz in your eyes
I see a love that burns eternally
and if you see how beautiful you are to me
you'll know I'm not lying

sure there'll be times we wanna say goodbye
but even if we try
there are something's in this life won't be denied
won't be denied
I'm never gonna say goodbye

cuz I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
and I swear it all over again and I I'm never gonna treat you bad
cuz I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
and I swear it all over again

the more I know of you, is the more I know I love you,
and the more that I'm sure I want you forever and ever more
and the more that you love me, the more that I know
oh that I'm never gonna let you go
gotta let you know
that I
I'm never gonna say goodbye (Im never gonna say goodbye)
cuz I never wanna see you cry (I never wanna see you cry)
I swore to you my love would remain
and I swear it all over again and I (swear it all over again, and I)
I'm never gonna treat you bad (I never wanna treat you bad)
cuz I never wanna see you sad (I never gonna see you sad)
I swore to share your joy and your pain (oh no, oh no)
and I swear it all over again
all over again
all over again
and I swear it all over again

If there is ONLY IF

IF and only IF...
IF there is an IF there won't be such things happening. What is wrong with me now?
Did i changed? Have I changed into a total stranger to you and also to myself?
What am i actually? I have asked many of them yet many of them said I am who I am..
Memories do remain in my heart for now. I guess things will not be back normal already.
I wish there was a U-TURN that can make everything in life looks better. Maybe a reverse button? sigh.. what else more can i say.. I wish to sleep and never wake up again. The pain i have who can understand? I do not mean to be so meant to you. Yet i know there is no Turning back anymore.. I guess it will end? I dowan to.. How if i insist? Nothing is gonna happen still.. sigh..
reminiscing of the past... sigh....

MOVIES!!

Felicia Choong wants to watch this 2 movies badly.. =(


I WAN I WAN I WAN I WAN..
ME NEED TIMEEEEEEEE.. MORE TIMEEEEEEEEEE 24 hours a day is not enuf lar! sigh~

till then..

Nth Special

Today... hmm...
I'm feeling so near yet so far...
O well...
What shall i post about?.. WTH...
Dam lifeless though. crap! *slap on forehead*
Is it me or is it my mood swing.
I realize I have been in bad mood quite recently. I dunno why. Hard to understand gals though.. hahaha! good luck to all the men! XD
HMMMMM..
u know wat!
The weather nowadays are really.. wth it make me speechless..
One second earlier it can be dam freaking hot.. the next min it can rained the whole dam day.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz I'm bored wit malaysia's whether. Is either SUNNY or RAINNY only.!!! me wan winter. Spring! hahaha.. XD This might be one of the reason why my mood change as the time ticks.. cause of the dam weather! hahaa.. hate sunny, hate rainny.. love... CLOUDY! hahaha.. errr.. izit? amen.. i dunno

As for now, I got a big headache on what to wear for his prom. Oh My Goodness.. With the mood swing i'm having.. I think is a bad bad idea for me to go shoping. omg.. godblessme. hahaha! I guess i gotta control my own mood not letting the mood control me!!!!
Think hard feli.. less then.. errrrrrr 5 days! and u still haven got a dress yet.. die pls.. =.=

My fren is just so CUTE! =.= hahaha

HAHA! XD

♥ 19th Birthday♥

♥7th November 2009♥

The next morning, everyone was half dead, cause most of us slept quiet early and woke up dam early.. XD dam tired though. hehe.. CM had planned to cook spaghetti especially for me because is my day! weee~ It was his first time cooking. Not bad though.. but stil can improve more. Come next time i shall teach u. =D PJ and May did helped out too. =) heart u guys.. ♥♥

Breast Cancer Campaign (PINK NIGHT). We were supposed to meet at church by 1.00 and depart at 1.30pm.. But wen I reached there at 1.00pm and changed yet NOT everyone was ready, this shows how punctual ppl can be. I was so frustrated over it and i just ask those who are following my car to get in the car and off we headed to bangsar. And of course i reminded EY to wait for YH yet she forgot also. (sorry YH) . We were to first to arrive there, so we started helping out in packing the goodies bag. We had 3000 Goodies bags to prepare! and is only bout 20 of us there to help out. Can u imagine that? LOL. I was so dam tired with my dam high heels as well. He is so nice to get me coffee from starbucks to make me feel better...

Busy Busy busy

Posers!!!

KONONNYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NICE NICE.. YUM YUM~~

Group Pic!!

After everything, we wen down to 1st Floor to prepare the survey form and everything. Me and Shana lead the rest to MCD which is dam far away from the complex we are in and its raining outside. =.= Well, the girls wan to eat MCD what can I say.. haha.. Hope they enjoyed themselves there. Me and Shana wen off right after sending them there cause we both have our birthday dinner to enjoy! =)

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MUA BIRTHDAY DINNER!
After I got changed then i saw him! He was suppose to pick me up from there. He was holding a bouquet of flower! He gave in front of my friends. Lucky not the girls. AMEN! ♥♥♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥♥The flower♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

After that we headed to somewhere. He blind folded me! omg! I was so so so.. err curious? haha.. Ended up i wen home and I straight Googled. XD Is in SS2. muahahaha.. smart feli. XD

Nice place for couple to go too.. XD
Become cave man and WOMAN! hahahaha..

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In that place where we were eating, he gave me bracelet ♥♥♥ A lovely bracelet wit a heart shape wit our pic on it and names engraved. XD
After dinner we headed to MV for a MJ's Movie (This is it). Went we got there, the line was so darn long.. as usual, MV right.. so i decided not to watch.. So he somehow showed me a sad look and i was kinda disappointed toO and out of no where he showed me 2 tickets. My eyes were like O.o.. He knows i wanna watch "This is it" so badly. hahahaha! Sad to say during the movie.. HE SLEPT! slept for a short moment. =( He was tired i guess. sobs.. After movie he again blind folded me! hmph.. he is so reluctant to let me know where we're going. Ended up i guessed myself. XD I'm so smarttttt... He brought me to lookout point celebrated wit my dear friends. =D I heart them for remembering my birthday! Love them all. There were a cake from secret recipe. Chocolate Indulgence one of my favorite cakes. XD

The cake ♥

Enjoying myself there. =D

After that we headed home. He followed me up, helping me carried all my stuff.. As usual, the first thing i did was to go into my room. He kinda stop me from going into my room and my room door was closed. Usually, my mom will have my room door open, but that day was weird! I know something fishy is going on, but i couldn't care cause i was sort of tired already so i just walked near the door opened it and i was STUNNED. O.O
I saw 7 different types of poohs sitting on my bed. I was so happy until there's actually tears coming out from my eyes. I'm crying. O.M.G Never had I cried on my birthday b4. Tears of JOY especially. I dunno it some how surprises me. I heart him♥! =D

New Family member! 7 of them!!! =D
I ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ THEM ALL.... muaxxxxxx

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Thats how i ended my day on my birthday... =D
SAY EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~
He once told me there were 7 Surprises for my birthday....
1) Flowers in the middle of no where..
2) Dinner in the cave! haha!!
3) Bracelet.. ♥
4) This is it's Movie Ticket
5) Friends he called
6) Birthday cake
7) 7 different pooh bears.. muahahaha ♥♥♥♥♥

LOVE U B!!!
MUAXXXX~
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING..
♥ I HEART U ♥

♥ Birthday Eve♥

♥ birthday♥

EXAMs!! midterm just over the day before my birthday. =) The paper was ok i guess, but after today listening to wat the lecturer said, i guess i better not hope so high for a good grade. =(
Anyway, Goodbye midterms and hellow assignment + finals. Amen!

After the exams, had dinner with my friends over in pavillion. Everyone was super hungry at that moment. So we decided to just walk into Madam Kwan to have some Nasi Lemak. All of us ordered Nasi Lemak and a drink except May, she's vegetarian that day. So she ordered a vegetarian Fried Rice that takes her ages to finish the plate of rice. Hers was serve the last one and therefore we gotta wait for her to enjoy her food and enjoy laughing at ME! cause of the way i laughed. =.= Funny meh? sob...

The EXPENSIVE Nasi Lemak

Anyway, after dinner we headed to my house cause we do not have the mood for shopping and who can shop wit guys around. XD and is still early! so we decided to at my place. While rotting we enjoyed camwhoring wit DC's iphone and instant upload the pics into facebook. His boss or GF must be wondering WTH is derek chan doing. HAHA!
At my house i felt something is gonna happen, i just can't wait!
After short while rot, May open my room door appear wit a cute little pooh bear jelly cake and pretend that was my birthday cake! HOHO! the box was so big and a small cake inside. I'm not that stupid to believe that they used a big box just to put a small cake. Oh well, i just make a wish and cut the cake. IT hurts me alot and i feel like i'm kill the pooh bear. =( They make me to treat pooh bear cruelly. =(

The Poke the eyes!!!!!

The made me do this. =(

Say CHEESSE

My cake. =D Expensive though..

Surprise!!! hahaha!

I'm so not going to eat the head. =(

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The girls~♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

After the small pooh bear cake cutting, the Actual cake existed! 6kg of cake. I wonder how am i going to finish. BUT yet! i'm almost finishing it already. yum yum. is nice okay. Thanks ppl. Thanks CM. =)

After everything, some of them wen home and off I headed to Neway for sing k Session, I enjoyed singing the emo songs and also some random songs. =) Is bout 3.20am in the morning so we wen back to my house and sleep. HOWEVER some of us are hungry! omg. so i fly all the way to taman midah mcd to get some breakfast for everyone. =D

In Neway ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Randoming

LOVE U ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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Special thanks to DC aka (&) XD haha.. and also CM that paid the bill. =D yum yum.
I'm grateful that they made time to spend time with me. I know u all had scarifies alot!! MUAXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX love u all.. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

P.S Sorry for what happened that day. I know my mood affected u guys. STILL I HEART U GUYS.. muaxxxxx

one year older~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE. =D
Growing old is mandatory; growing up is optional.
HAHA!

Sun Yat Fai Lok!
qu ni sheng er kuai le
Joyeux Anniversaire!
Hau`oli la hanau!
Buon Compleanno!
Feliz Cumplea–os!
Otanjou-bi Omedetou Gozaimasu!
Saeng il chuk ha ham ni da!

will update bout my birthday soon. =)

Mid Term!!

AH HA! mid term is on friday 6th November..
and guess wat.. I'M NOT EVEN PREPARED.. arghhh..
I NEED MOTIVATION!!! motivate me pls.. =(
hate Jackson's Chapter 6&7.. It so gonna screw me up =( and i so gonna screw the midterm =D
I wonder how am i going to survive passing this darn paper...
AH YES! i know marco is an easy paper. still i hate econs! ish!!!

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On the 1st November.. which is on a SUNDAY! I wen for a FST meeting.
The meeting was so bored that i literally read all the mins of the previous meeting. I was so call asked to be in the meeting.. NTH i can do but to attend. =( hahaha..
BUT! i enjoyed the sushi brought by the chairperson. The sushi is from Nikko Hotel! YUM YUM!

I WAS SO BORED THAT I LITERALLY SPOTTED THIS AND LAUGHED =.= I feel bad though.. haha!
This is some sort of pingat that one of the members there got from M.B.S (I was bored so i took out my fon and try capturing the pics..) Boredom..

Till then....

am i the authur?

Nothing else can be done.
As i have hurt many of them. Is all about me all the while.
Regrets are idle, yet history is one long regret in my life.
I have never felt this lost in my life before.
I always wonder what will be next in my life? will i continue to regret?
I'm just sitting here holding a pen in my hand. Deciding what to write on the page of my life that can leads to no regrets. However, I guess it is true that nothing is perfect in life.
I know, and i guess all of us know that true love burns the brightest in our life, BUT we gotta know that brightest flames leave the deepest scars. Who am i to determine what is love?
I have really learned that whose who speak about one's miseries usually hurt, those who keep their mouth shut hurts more. They literally gotta swallow everything? Nobody knows their pain. Not even me i guess..
I guess nobody in life can ever go back and start a new beginning; however we can make a better ending in life?
How i really wish my life stories can be written with a pencil. Reason why?
Simple! we got eraser to correct the mistakes we done in life and the cost of the mistakes is low and it does not leave scars behind.
If only i could turn back time. which is something impossible and ridiculous to think about yet many of us do wish for that? silly rite?
God is so amazing, Small brain which literally can store so much of stuff which we called it memories. Memory is a way of holding on to things we cherish most and the things we are the the things we never want to lose in life. Like i always used to say "Memories hold and remains forever".
I guess besides regret, we can have good memories in life to cherish.
I hav e disappoint u. I know. Deep in me I will not be able to forgive myself yet i know You'll still be here for me and support me and go through it wit me together.

THE DOOR WE OPEN AND CLOSE EACH DAY DECIDE THE LIVES WE LIVE

END OF THE DAY IS STILL ME. I THAT GOTTA FACE MY OWN LIFE AND CHOOSE MY OWN PATH. Of course wit God's Help...

"Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see life with a clearer view again"

Nothing else i can do.. All i can do is to pray and wish for a better tmr in life.
I hope you could forgive me.. I have done wrong.
I should do what I wan, be honest to myself and to YOU! and then it would do good for all of us.. thats all i can say.. sigh....