REASONsssss

Is Because I'm random.
Is Because I feel like it.
Is Because I'm suppose to go and study now.
Is Because i don't want to go to study now..
Is Because I'm in love with myself and also "you".
Is Because I want to show you who am i.
Is Because I'm really serious this time.
Is Because I don't want to blog bout my feelings.
Is Because I'm really lazy.
Is Because I'm eating mcd almost everyday.
Is Because I saw u eating.
Is Because I asked for it and i deserve it?
Is Because I don't even noe what you think
Is Because I'm stupid, I'm just new to this.
Is Because I'm full of excuses.
Is Because I dunno you that well
Is Because I don't have reasons y i have the feeling.
Is Because I'm dueling in the past again.
Is Because I'm missing you right now.
Is Because I'm bored.
Is Because I'm lifeless.
Is Because i like to say because.
Is Because you actually bothered to read all my becauseSSS
Is Because here it is... XD
and finally is because i'm laming

camp camp camp camp camp~!!

Back from HMC leadership training camp; 3 days and 2 nights all the way to Trolak, Perak. The camp was fun. It's nice to meet new friends and have got closer to them and not forgetting lecturers too. The activities were normal and most of the time it is the cooperation between teammates that makes a champion.
We had only a few activities on our first day, most of it were ice breaking games and one of it was the SOLO drop. They actually brought us to the jungle and drop us one by one. Scary wei! but is funny somehow. There's story behind. hahaha...
We had 4 activities on the second day. Early in the morning we had 2km run. We don’t actually run alone. We had to run in our group. So, basically if one of the members are down or can’t run we had to figure a way out so that we can reach the finishing line. It took some of our life away. Next the high ropes and the low ropes. The high ropes are pretty nice and the low ropes are the obstacle course. In low ropes, I dunno how I got to be the last person to finish the task. All eyes are on me when is my turn so is really pressure. haha... Anyhow, kinda wasted cause there isn’t any 12ft wall for us to climb up to like I used to have it in my church camp. Next was a game where we work in a team to find our check points. It’s pretty easy, but somehow or rather there are still groups that did not manage to go for the last checkpoint. My group was the 1st group to reach the final checkpoint and ms.debbie told us we were really fast. Well, b4 the game start we tried our very best to get familiarize ourselves with the environment there; knowing where’s the trees and all. XD We actually bang ourselves into a tree one time b4 we reach our 3rd check point. Then we had bbq for dinner! But it makes no different because we had no chance to bbq ourselves. NO FUN! Haha juz kidding. We had own activities; night walk all by ourselves, gamble, heart attack and of course GOSSIPs. It’s nice to play truth or dare with ppl u’re not that close with. That’s all about the camp. Had so much of fun and I miss it so much not only the camp but also the ppl!! Hope there’s still chance for me to see the person I wan and also my fellow frenz. =)
Pics time!

He's a funny guy. Like him alot!

Poser! haha

Nice Scenery?

Patrick Glenn.

Kee siao ppl

Blur taiwaness guy

My room!!!! Where all my frens gather and crap!

YUMMY!!!!

One of the Foods we bought from giant!!

He's prank calling ppl. by saying ROOM SERVICE

Group! Sapultura! YAY!

That nite i got myself into crazy mood. making lame jokes and even dance on bed. haha

Ms. Debbie! Psychology Lecturer

Owhhh how sweet..

Ann Joe and the Gurls... He always look blur.

Our random pick Headmaster in the camp. VERY VERY responsible.

Wiiky watching MR. BEAN?? OMG!! haha.. seriously, he turn on the tv juz to watch that

Cards cards..

Last but not least.. i swear i will never buy tis specs. I look stupid wearing keng fai's specs

There's more pics like me dressing in dress with a TABLE CLOTH!! gosh! i can't believei did that. and many more. but not with me. gotta find it. haha.. till then

miss you! hmm...i know is stupid. haha

Reflection

Memories are always sweet. When we reflect back of what has already happened in the past -good or bad, we tend to laugh at what we have done; and cry at what we have regret. The joy and sorrows we been through. All is left is juz memories. At times when i couldn't sleep, lying on the bed I tend to start scrolling down to memory lane. Things I have done that makes me happy and sad. I feel greatful on what God has given me - family and friends. I never thought of asking for more. Love from family and friends are important. We tend to forget those who love us and care for us. Arggg.. i can't believe i'm saying tis. anyway, Wonderful day I had had yesterday. Gonna crash into her house again! XD
Our memories are the only paradise from which we can never be expelled

till then..

Wonderful day

Today wasn't really my day. But I'm happy and satisfy.

During CTS, we were ask to draw a car and design it our own. well, this is how our car look like..

Nice????? XD wern di's drawing. KAKAKAKA

It took us less than an hour to decide to overnight in May's house. So here i am blogging in her house with the rest of my college mates.

Where we wen? Basically, our reason here is to go pasar malam. I love sri petaling pasar malam. Lots of things to see.c

In the afternoon before class... PIZZA... calories!!! Gosh..

FAT MAN steamboat. Gonna be fat soon. ahahaha..

till then...

Colourful...

I always thought that my life was full wit dullness. I used to wonder literally where's the all the colours?? Until today, again i thought of that question. It was during my journey back from college around 7 plus in the evening. Sitting inside the monorail nth better to do but to look out the window (i dunno what we call that as). Looking at the beautiful sky that God's has created. At that moment, i saw rainbow. RAINBOW. Is true! I couldn't believe it. Is God trying to tell me that my life does not only has one colour but is fill wit many colours and he's always there to cheer me up. O well, for me i think that's part of the msg. I hardly sees rainbow. The last time was during my journey to Port Dickson I think. Years back. Never thought I could see it again. How often rainbow appear especially with the weather now!.
Thank God for everything he has done to my family, friends, people in the world and last but not least ME!

Right Choice?

Today, mua high skol is having a Alumni Gathering. I choose not to go. Y? cause i wanna go midvalley. haha.. Did i actually made the right choice? will i miss the fun. The answer is YES. I will definitely miss the fun tat they're gonna have there. Anyway, Since I made up my mind, Better not think bout it. XD

Stupid HMC server.

I'm really running out of patient.ZZZZzzzzz.. Stil waiting.. crap.

I regret.. regret..and regret letting u noe. I wanna help u to get into a group, i dunno whose group. I suggested mine without thinking about consequences. . And now there's NO! return. How the hack am i gonna solve tis?????? bla bla bla..Zzzzz. i'm so dead.

IS all my fault. I had a sudden feeling that things will get worst. ZZZzz

BBQ?

hmmmm..ooooo yar..

I forget when was my last time enjoying my worship and enjoy playing games that was organize by others. Finally i made a move to go for the Chirtian Fellowship Welcome Party held in Help. Kinda enjoying. Too bad i gotta leave early. Hope to join u guys back soon. XD met few of skol mates there. one human dislike. yew.. but nvm. god teach us to forgive and forget. haha..

One Utama!!! Haven been there for quite some time. BBQ plaza! kinda nice place to eat. Haven been there b4. Few of us go in there bluring dunno wat to do.Today 1st time. So.... tis was our breakfast + lunch = ?? Brunch.

Then we proceed to starbucks for our coffee. Well, we can call tat as dinner. Wonder why always our eating time gets mix up.

Ate around 3.00+

Love it especially the beefs.

till then

M.O.O.D

Glossophobia.

Generally, it means Fear of PUBLIC speaking.

Basically, many of us fear of being on stage, we call it the "stage fright". Speaking in front of the people that we don't know. One of my coursemate gave a short oral on tat. Many of us got attracted with his topic, is pretty interesting.

Today, i learnt that knowing what u fear of isn't enough. Knowing the way to overcome it and improve is the way to keep life moving on.

For me, being a young leader in Girl's Brigade and also in skol activities didn't really help me to overcome my fears that i have. Although i wen through lots of leadership training camps, which i used to have fun there I realise that the only person that can help me change is myself with God's help - the effort that i plan to put in. I cannot be staying forever in my comfort zone. I have to start learning not to hide from mistakes. I've got to learn how to face the fact. For the past few years, went there's a problem, all i did was juz avoid finding solutions, avoid being blame and forgetting bout it. I've never thought neither to learn the mistakes i made nor i dare to face the mistakes i made in the previous years. That's really bad.

Time is like a river. You cannot touch the same water twice, because the flow that has passed will never pass again. So why must i continue hiding and wasting my precious time? Is time for me to come out from the comfort zone and stand on my own ground. can I?

I cannot promise, but i'll try.

Lately, my mood swings literally at a very much different pace. At one moment i can be superb happy. Next moment can be really depressed. I ain't know y. I juz got carried away at times and my heart sank and got hurt itself. Wonder why does this weird feelings come and go. Does it have to be me? sigh~.. I'm controlling myself really hard. Self control. O god, pls grant me more patient..

Got pick to for leadership training camp in college for this coming week. My feelings? excited?

Basically, I'm kinda bored with this kind of camp. Since is my 1st college camp, I'll enjoy it as fun as possible and get to know more humans from there. Glad that wern di is with me in this camp. Hope June, may, rachel and yee wern get to come along too. There're more guys then gals going. HAHAHA.. I sound so wrong. XD

till then..

Happy birthday, Malaysia!

O man, I'm falling in love with christiana Ronald more and more. He look great man. I watched yesterday sports channel, it shows the UEFA drawing something and Ronaldo got 2 awards from there. He's HOT! haha.. Beside David Beckham, He'll be the next footballer that can make me go crazy? haha.. may be.. XD

Alright, today is Malaysia's Birthday. Happy 51th Happy birthday! Malaysia as we know it today is a thriving developing country. 31st August 1957 marks the independence from British colonialism and the day the joyful, triumphant shouts of “Merdeka, Merdeka, Merdeka!” resonated throughout the nation.Thanks to Tunku Abdul Rahman. In nearly every year, a brand new theme were made for the celebration of the Independence Day of MalaysiaThis year theme will be "Unity Is The Core of Success"Malaysia Boleh?.. XD

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!

till then...

Cherish

The moment I’ll cherish. Even is an hour journey.
Walking along the corridor. Waiting and hoping to see u at times. It has been a long time seen we last chat. I remembered our last met was at skol few years back. Well, we're in different skol and also different tuition; never had a chance to speak to u. So, basically is really hard. Haha.. Anyway, Seriously I'm glad to see u. Even is juz a split moment. I know is silly to think and wishes something that are practically impossible.hmm.. Different semester, different time. Just wait and see wat will happen. XD (dun think at the wrong side okay.)

I think i need to change my way of being in college a "little" bit. Simply because I'm bored with it. Dam myself. Juz can’t help.
Since semester one, my fren and I have been planning.. "BEEN" planning to join some sort of club or whatever u call that. In the end nth comes out. Y? Simply because we're lazy. and... There’s too many clubs to choose or maybe i should say there's too little info bout those clubs.. lazy to find out, no initiative, no NTH! haha.. L.A.Z.Y that word can really kills ppl. Especially me, me and me... FELICIA CHOONG stop being lazy la.. sigh.. can't help it. XD

Alright, Semester 2 has just started. One week gone and.. How many weeks to go? 16? 17?
It's rather weird to me. Although I'm no long a so call newbie at college anymore, the feeling is just plain weird. I don't know about others but this is what I feel; Getting up early, waiting for lame public transports and my weekday’s routine is back! BACK TO SKOL is wat i used to say wen I'm in high skol. Although my timetable only have 4 days class a week, the classes end very late. mon and thurs till 6.30p.m OMG! few classes straight. Is surprise to actually see me sleeping during lectures, with the aircond and comfortable sit that they have in conference hall and thereat. How can u not fall asleep? I juz HOPE that i will be able to survive in semester 2 and continue leaving.

till then....

Easy vs Difficult

Easy is to judge the mistakes of others
Difficult is to recognize our own mistakes
Easy is to talk without thinking
Difficult is to refrain the tongue
Easy is to hurt someone who loves us.
Difficult is to heal the wound...
Easy is to forgive others
Difficult is to ask for forgiveness
Easy is to set rules.
Difficult is to follow them...
Easy is to dream every night.
Difficult is to fight for a dream...
Easy is to show victory.
Difficult is to assume defeat with dignity...
Easy is to admire a full moon.
Difficult to see the other side...
Easy is to stumble with a stone.
Difficult is to get up...
Easy is to enjoy life every day.
Difficult to give its real value...
Easy is to promise something to someone.
Difficult is to fulfill that promise..
Easy is to say we love.
Difficult is to show it every day..
Easy is to criticize others.
Difficult is to improve oneself...
Easy is to make mistakes.
Difficult is to learn from them...
Easy is to weep for a lost love.
Difficult is to take care of it so not to lose it.
Easy is to think about improving.
Difficult is to stop thinking it and put it into action...
Easy is to think bad of others
Difficult is to give them the benefit of the doubt...
Easy is to receive
Difficult is to give
Easy is keep the friendship with words
Difficult is to keep it with meanings
Easy to read this
Difficult to follow

blessed

Boo..

I'm bored.

It only took me five minutes to change my mind to take up business and drop human com.

Basically, what I'm heading to in my degree is towards business or psychology, so i don't think there's any reason for me not to take up that subject in foundation. So far attended 3 classes, is kinda fun although the class is kinda quiet. New to arts stream subject. Hope i can cope up with it really soon.
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Throughout this whole week, i really gotta thank god for the blessing. I got into classes I wanted and all are good and nice lecturer. (may be.. haha) though I've not gotten a place in business class and still hoping that they will either increase the number of students in a class or open up a new class. Overall, I'm really thankful for the rest of the things i got. Amen.
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I'm feeling really sad these few days. What my fren told me is really correct. I'll never introduce anymore.. no more *full stop* sigh~ maybe is too late. But i did know that this will happen wen i told u about tis. I expected it.Therefore, I'm regreting. sigh~ can't do anything but to smile. You hurt me in directly. I don't know how to tell u not to continue doing that and if i do, i believe that u're not going to bother wat i say either. What should i do then? U took me for granted again. All i can do is juz cry silently. Is hurt. U're one of the shoulder i used to lean on wen i'm depressed and down. But now?

Nobody really cares if you’re miserable, so you might as well be happy. We ask God to forgive us for our evil thoughts and evil temper, but rarely, if ever ask Him to forgive us for our sadness.
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Is really a bad idea to go into a tutorial class without having notes and books with you. You will not be able to focus. haha.. why am i saying this? it happens to me. My frenz and I have not bought econs book simply because we're deciding whether to but new, second hand or photocopy wan. Therefore, we wen into the class without knowing anything and we don't know what is going on and juz copied whatever is written on the board...

Less then half an hour..

magazines!!!! i wan to read la.. sheees..

till then...