Plain life

Reading other blogs and i had a sudden feeling that my life is literally empty just like an empty coin box, while the others are filled with pennies and dimes. Why is tis so?
Apparently, i ain't understand y my life is in a mess. Nothing goes my way.
Some told me not waste my time on worrying bout my problems. So far, I'm not. I'm juz curious about my life in future. Curiosity is wat i have now.

I'm trying to achieve better understanding and approach the truth. Y so? haha.. well, I'm kinda lame cause my facial expression is not relevant with wat i'm saying.
O well, here's an example conversation in pizza hut after class with 9 of us there.

ME:- June, I'm angry lar.. (telling her with my smiling face)
JUNE:- What? u're angry? Y?
JANSEN:- u don't look like u're angry. U're expression is not relevant wit wat u're saying.
ME:- Yer..i'm serious. i'm really angry... haiz... i saw my fren and bla bla bla (still smiling)
WERNDI:- What happen to her????
JUNE:- She said she's angry.. but i agree with janson, u don't look like u're angry. are u kidding?
ME:- I'm serious la..(still smiling)
JANSEN:- i'm speechless....
ME:- Don't think that i'm being naive la.. serious wan la.. (smiling)
JUNE:- SWT! i'm ignoring u..
ME:- haiz.. angry.. angry angry..
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I don't know what am i think. I can't tell Wat's the reason. I'm juz happy wen i get to see u around me. I hope nth goes further then this. I wanna stay juz where we are. I'm happy enough. I hope u understand. *fullstop*
I ain't wanna have anymore wishful thinking just to please myself. O well, is isn't that hard after all.

I do not wan to have the hatred feeling towards u. But i just can't help it. I can't forget that incident that had happened. Thats the fact. U're not even doing anything to help me. All u did is juz smiling at me and laugh. I gotta pretend to laugh as well. Is that the way? U just couldn't be bother. So many mistakes u did and i can juz forgive u like tis. u take me for granted. Is really sad and hurt. U're hurting me directly. sigh~.. when are u going to realise. I think by the time u realise, my trust towards u will be gone. sooner or later......

HAHA! Fishie, Batrachophobia is Wat u're having now! u're fear of FROGS.. gosh! hahahahaa

Basically, we move from pizza hut to secret recipe. Super full at tat moment. can't eat anymore.

Till then....

Where's the Gateway...?

Trust me, nothing sounds better then spending the next 3 months in college now i guess. (am i out of my mind? i'm actually saying that. gosh!) getting even more moody now, wonder why.

Dislike those stupid people who always ruin my life and wants me to get into some trouble or watever u call that. I'm sick of it ady.

i don't give a dam about it anymore. I still have my life to go on. Get a life of ur own.

Long journey. Currently in a superb worry mood about my future. Did I lost my path way? I'm really worry. I'm pretty sure that things might get better wen days passes. Hopefully. Amen!

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Finally, I understand why my bro is quiting. Before this I've always question him y y y.. y this and that. After seeing the video, the people that are left there, I really understand his feelings. I hope that he has chosen the correct pathway. Well, I dunno whether to support him or not. But i'll always keep u in my prayer bro. All da best in ur decision. Cheers. XD

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Yesterday Olympic closing ceremony once again left me totally breathless. Is great to see the formation form by them. Wat an amazing job. Well done China. 16 glories days has finally comes to an end. The moment that every athletics will cherish most. The best part of the closing ceremony was i get to see David Beckhem. haha.. Next up, London. Can't wait. See ya in 2012.

Till then...

People would change as the moon rounds

人在做 , 天在看 - People do things while the God watches

Meaning: No one can get away from trouble. The bad ones will have difficulties getting away; The good ones will be rewarded. =)

Haha! wonder why I'll post up Chinese wording leh.. Well, i get help from friends. smart leh. XD

I seriously believe in that quote. After watching a drama series. It hit me.

Apparently, many things I've done I had never bother about the out come. I did it according to my feelings even on making decision which is literally wrong. It may hurt others as well as myself. I'm being selfish in this way. Yea, so why must I? I also dunno.

Yesterday nite, I wen to mamak with a friend of mine. I ordered a cup of Teh Tarik KURANG manis. When the drink came, i wonder if the guy understand the meaning of "kurang" manis. I took a sip, it taste like as though there's tons of sugar in there. Gosh! Is soooooo sweet that I can hardly continue drinking. It makes me feel like pouring it on the floor. O well, God teaches us not to waste. So i've no choice but to finish it. (wondering will i have diabetes.. haha..).

I realise that blogging makes me have the habit of writing short forms, writing lame English in my essay lar.. crap. sigh~ can't help it. either i use proper English here or stop blogging. haha.. the choice is mine. I dunno. will never change! XD i don't wan to blog and think of those lame grammar errors la.. haiz... think think think... o well, is juz a plain blogging stuff. soooo ....

My appetite for today must be really good that can make me gain weight @_@ may be is cause of my mood. mix feeling. sigh~..
Went to steak garden for dinner. I ordered so many other food beside my main course. Dam. Then after i've visit my grandma, I drag my parents to the pasar malam nearby. Practically, wen u go to pasar malam, u can't go back without buying those lame junk food from there rite? haha.. I bought some of those food. and eat again?? gosh.. can die...

Okay, here's a promise to myself. I must be on an extreme diet after tonite. (i always said that.. never come true at all haha.. XD)

till then....

Faking

Is hard to forget. Maybe in this world, all of us gotta get scolded even on things which we're actually Innocent. O well, is normal. i gotta learn how to accept it.
Today, honestly, I'm putting on a fake smile never thought of faking but i don't feel comfortable.

I'm really happy that i can see my college mates again and reunion with them again. Happy! really I'm. But.. sigh~ y in life there's always a but there? hmm..
Must be having a mix feeling today.. hmmm

Today, in da morning, as usual i took public transport to college. I encounter something. A lady sitting beside me in the bus stand suddenly faint right in front of me. She starts to vomit white bubble out of her mouth. This is really scary. Sigh. I'm afraid to help cause i ain't know what to do. SIGH~ scary moment.

Neway, an exciting sem a head? i hope so. Begins tis Monday. Hope it'll be exciting and I can score good. I've chosen economics, and human communication as my elective subjects. New to both of them. Hope to do well. Good luck feli. Muaxxxx

H.U.N.G.R.Y.. I'm really hungry now!! better go for food hunting now..

till then....

straight from the heart.

Honestly I'm a little angry
Technically, I'm not fully at fault.

Anyway, Promise I'll act like a stupid gal. I'm keeping my mouth shut in front of u. That's a promise. In order to avoid misunderstand from them.

I'm sorry. I gotta say tis right here.

okay, on the other hand, i'm really happy that i manage to pass all my subject. Not bad. hahaha..

but then wat i aim did not turn out to be reality. sigh~

till then...

Special

Years come and go. But today is a special day

- 20 08 2008 -
Triple Match!! It happens only once in a life time..

Technically, in this pic, i'm UNO craze.

It's not about being who everyone else wants you to be, it's about being yourself

Whim

growing up can be so strange. Looking back at previous pictures, etcs..

Kinda miss those days.

Gosh! results coming out tis friday. I can't imagine if i really fail one of my subject. sob! god be wit me. haha.. Juz hope for the best. Can't really aim anymore. tired.

Sigh~...

From someone special. yupe! i love it!

Disheart Holidays.

I'm up early today! - just can't sleep anymore, so woke up and I'm left alone at home with my bro as usual. T_T. Since coll is starting soon, I decided to go for a hair cut. Since I'm superb bored at home. Sat there for like 4 hours. Butt also flat ady. Anyway, I'll have to sit there for at least 4 hours 2 times in a year to get a hair cut cum straightening. Going to get use to it. Currently having short hair style. Hoping it will look okay. haha...

I still don't understand y.. sigh~ wisdom needed.

Till then...

Prepared.

I really enjoy the Beijing Olympics 2008 games I hope everyone's having the same feeling as I do. XD The opening ceremony left me totally breathless - One word to describe. GRAND! I was totally speechless throughout the whole performance that nite, they accomplished such an amazing job!! *appplause* Well done China what a way to kick off this year's games.
One World, One Dream

Is sad to see Lee Chong Wei lost to Lin Dan in badminton men's single. Anyway, he did a good job.=)

Exactly 1 more week before my sem 2. Haven been to anywhere interesting and making full use of my holiday. Well, I don't know why i ain't feel like going anywhere for vacation only shopping i guess. hmmm~ may be is due to the problems I have wit me.

Being jealous of someone?? hey! y must we be jealous of others while God has different plan for everyone. If all are going through the exact same path in life, none of us will be special in different way. I agree that is easy to say and not easy to do. *fake smile*
jealous = getting angry = frustration = helpless life of own. okay. i gotta admit that sometimes i do get jealous. I'm trying to get this away. Instate of feeling jealous, why not make them as our aim to do better then them and be a better person? okay, it sounds better. XD
In another way, jealousy is nothing more than a fear of abandonment.
"Don't waste your life on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long, and in the end it's only you with yourself."
no offence to anyone out there. =)

lots of luv
feli


till then......

DONE

The day b4 yesterday i cleared some stuff on top of my big book shelf. There, i found one box of puzzle. I kinda forgotten that my fren gave tis to me b4. But at least i still remember who okay. haha..

Anyway, I'M DONE! with the puzzle.


Lets see.....
kinda like tis pic. haha

helpless life

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

All I've been doing at home is drama drama and MORE dramasssss, despite the countless things that need to be done including cleaning my room, washing car, etc etc. there are millions of things. Okay, I'm being too exaggerate here. Can't blame myself, how sad it is for a poor gal here having a month holiday without motivation to do anything but to sit in front of the dam notebook to watch lame drama. Drama addict. OMG. HELP! haha.. I plan to list out the dramas. BUT.. nah.. i dun think i should.

i seriously have no life. T_T

I hope wen college starts, I can stop. S.T.O.P stop!!

Ain't wanna flunk my papers in sem 2.
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They whom remains at my heart.

Missing those days.

There's one gal in this pic i miss her so BADLY.. and guess who?

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IS her! JASMINE KOIT.. i miss uuuuuu

Omg! i can't believe that i found this pic in my image folder. LOL... look the thing he's holding. SUIT him. muahahaha.

I wanna go PASAR MALAM. ........

Okay, gotta continue with my drama. Ciow.

"unmeaningful" Holiday for semester 1

It has been pass 2 weeks i'm on holiday. Didn't manage to make full used of my lovely holiday. 1 MONTH wei.. So dam long. There's 2 more weeks to go. This 2 weeks i'm gonna make full use of it by thinking wat subject to take up for my sem 2. haha.. still thinking hard and praying hard so that my result for sem 1 will be good. HD if possible. XD

Honestly, i rather not have such a long holiday. I miss college friends. I miss the fun we always had in class. Having holidays should it be a good thing??? Hmm.. can relax. BUT i'm bored. sigh~

Let see what i've been doing for the pass 2 weeks.

Eat eat eat

Sleep like a PIG

dramaS and movieS

Shopping (bored with all da shopping mallssss)

Story books. (gossip gals)

Hang Out

Help mom in new house stuff

AH HA! 1 important thing i've not been doing. Clean my room!!! my room now is in a mess. Well, i'm kinda lazy la... zzzzzz maybe later. XD

Is there a replacement?? Promises dun come so easy.