when?

When was the last time we both hang out together just me and you?
When was the last time we both had a long chat?
When was the last time we both really smiles straight from heart?
When was the last time we both really sit down and share how each other feeling?
When was the last time we both share the same feeling?
When was the last time we both concern more about each other?
When was the last time we both have the same thought?

Is not just you is about US. me and you both of us. WE is wat I care about.
I am pretty sure I miss the old us.
I wish time could turn back and let the time will stop there and let me feel it.
Is really different compare to now.
It really bites wen I get to know this..
I guess in life there isn't 100% focus on that person. is always 10% at each i guess....
After knowing what is important to each other. I guess the things we do and the way we act will obviously change.
WHAT SHALL I DO?
..............

Anyway, I think I indirectly got the answer from my parents. I guess is wat i expected and yet I couldn't accept it. I dun think I wanna wait till the day comes and they tell me right to my face. I can't imagine what will happen.
I wanted it so badly. Yet certain things are really not in my control. I gotta learn to let go and stop thinking so much.

Happiness does not come from trying to be happy. It is an inner good feeling and satisfaction. It brings true joy and it is true and no being or trying to be. I am trying to stay close with God in prayer. I hope my thinking and expectation will changed. Prayer can changed us. I believe that.

till then...