When fingers do the talking.......

What is wrong wit me. WTH!



I just can't understand myself.



I begin to have this weird feelings.. Is just so not me..



Maybe I dunno how to express myself.. hmmm~ Just One word!



C-O-M-P-L-I-C-A-T-E-D..?



I've been asking myself over and over again. In the end there will be no answer coming to me. sigh~ sad case wei.. Its just bite wen i know how emotionally hurt i am and not just physically tired but EMOTIONALLY tired as well towards the things that happened around me.



I guess it has been about me, myself and I all the while.



I can't stand alone. I have to admit i'm not strong enough to handle certain things. sigh~ I can't pretend that nothing happened which the fact it did happen and is just right in front of me which until now i dare not face it! I can't be running away always like a marathon runner..*slap forehead* sigh~



Running away from problem just won't solve things.



I've gotta learn.. learning from the mistakes i made. arghh I just can't make up my mind in what i wan.



I wanna...............



I wanna.................



I wanna .....................



and most importantly,



I wanna understand MYSELF! sigh~







Izit that hard for me to understand myself? sigh~ i just dun get it and i never will get it i guess..



I somehow wish that I could go to bed, sleep and wake up as if is a brand new day and nothing happen b4. *slap myself*







Past Present and FUTURE is wat humans will always worry about.



Some asked me why do i have to look back at the past and worry about it wen it's already "the past". I just can't give them the answer. Not only to them but also to myself. sigh~



It look easy.. but somehow is really hard to give an answer to that question.. simply because.. i never understand WHY!







I'm afraid to face the fact... and I'm really afraid i will make the wrong decisions..



Many asked me, why am i so indecisive/hesitant or doubtful... (ah! watever u call that lar.. I just can't get the right word out of my head now! )



I'm just afraid that I will regret after making that "decision" in my life. Not to say i had never tried b4. It did happened and I'm sure I will regret for life. Don't ask me what izit.. is just something i will never want it to happen again or to mention about. Nobody knows. Is always about me myself and I...







Sigh~ pls just ignore all the lame things that i am saying. I know it doesn't seems to make any sense. It's Nonsense!



I'm just randomly typing what comes to my mind right now!! I've been emo-ing for quite some time and i think i should put a Full stop to it even if there's no solution to it. Once again.. hide. =.= wth...



Seriously, I have no idea what i'm crapping about up there. So please forgive mua.. I just wanna let my fingers do the talking since my lips can't do it! so this is the fingers talking session. sigh i'm hoping that i can get over it soon.. real soon i hope..











till then...